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无题～

2010-03-12T20:33:00.000-08:00

本来应该在做着事情，但是思绪一直不能集中～头脑有太多的画面一直在重播～

昨晚的对话让我发现，原来男人都是看外表的～男人都喜欢漂亮的人，东西，或事物～

其实又何止是男人呢？所有的人都一样，每个人都喜欢漂亮的东西呀～

我知道他说话时无心的，可是心还是痛了一下～

原来我的外貌真的是上不了台面～哈哈～

我其实真的是一个笨蛋，一直在很努力的在达到别人的标准～

说什么减肥是为了健康，都是骗人的～

其实，我只是在努力达到别人对我的要求～

因为大家都不喜欢胖胖的人，那我就减肥吧～

但是，虽然瘦了很多，别人也觉得”是，你瘦了很多”，后面还有一个但是，“你还不到标准，要加油哦，继续瘦下去”～

很累，真的觉得很累～

我一直跟自己说要坚强，我以为我真的成功了，我在很努力的表现不是自己的自己～

因为表现自己会让人觉得自己很不成熟，让人觉得自己很不懂事～

本来以为不提，不说，不讲，就没有人知道～

原来还是自己傻的可以，自己骗自己，原来大家都知道～哈哈～

我在很努力地面对大家了～我不知我能做的多好，但是我在尽全力了～

我觉得我快要得面部神经失调症～我不知道自己的面部表情如何，不过至少我是在努力的展现笑容～至于成不成功，就不在我的范围里面～

其实，一直在回想，只是让我觉得自己很笨～我真的很不想承认，但是为什么我就是这么傻？

她要回来了，其实我很感恩，这两个星期她不在这里，我才有时间好好思考～

其实，我是很不想理她的，无论任何理由～但是，我必须想到自己在教会的领袖责任～

我不可以这么自私，所以就算是表面也好，也要对她公平～

是很假，很虚伪，但是这是做人的道理～

其实，我也没想对她怎样，就只是不想面对她～但是这不可行，会让自己留下话柄～

所以，我会很努力，再次把自己伪装好，来面对人群～

其实·，我真的很想离开教会，但是我跟自己说，不可以这么任性，我还有很多教会的责任，不能说跑就跑～很想跑回家，但是，我不可以这么任性，我还有教书的责任～就算只是part-time，我也必须对他们负责任～有责任感是好还是不好？哈哈，笨蛋，现在你跑不掉了～

乱七八糟，没有次序，我想我也患上思绪失调症吧？！不知道自己到底说了什么～

如果，你正在看这篇文章，不要吓到，因为是我在发神经，其实没事的，所以不要担心～

我的结论是，我真的是一个超级大笨蛋～哈哈～

19句至理名言

2010-03-05T08:05:00.000-08:00

1、如果发短信息给一个人，他一直不回，不要再发了。没有这么卑微的等待。

2、如果没有人陪，学着一个人听音乐看书写点心情日记。这是个好习惯。

3、如果一个人很难过，找个角落或者在被子里哭一下，不需要别人同情可怜，哭过之后一样开

心生活。

4、如果一个人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。不懂珍惜你的人不要为之不舍，更不必继续付出你的

友情或爱情，到头来受伤的是自己他人不会为之难过。

5、如果可以不抽烟，别抽。如果可以不喝酒，别喝。这是不爱惜自己身体的表现，如果只因一

些人，那么我们别傻了，爱你的人不会让你难过的。

6、伤心的时候找个信任的朋友诉说一下，不要一个人默默承受，这只会会更添寂寞感与忧伤。

7、不开心的时候白天看看蓝天晚上看看夜色，广阔的天空自有属于我们爱，宁可高傲的发霉不

要低调的恋爱。跟自己说我是最好的。保持一份自信。

8、宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都不公平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知

己不要是恋人。

9、记住你喜欢的人的生日，包括你的家人，当然，还有自己。生日没有人送礼物也无所谓，你

可以买精美的礼物，送给妈妈和爸爸。

10、闲下来的时候,放一段柔情音乐，翻阅几页好书，然后睡个懒觉，快哉。心情不好的时候,也可以睡一觉。

11、从现在开始，聪明一点，不要问别人想不想你？爱不爱你？若是要想你或者爱你自然会对你

说，但是从你的嘴里说出来，别人会很骄傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，顺其自然以最佳心态面对，因为这世界就是这么不公平往

往在最在乎的事物面前我们最没有价值。

13、不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的

事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必要，人生不必时时聪明。

14、任何情况下，背后不说他人是非。如果一定要你说，说好话。多个朋友是好事，即使不是很

要好的，总比因为自己说话不慎重不思考而多一个敌人好得多。

15、允许偶尔看肥皂剧，但不可成为依赖。允许偶尔披头散发，但要注重场合。允许偶尔骂脏

话，但只限在老友面前或者独自一人时，记得说过后要忘掉那些让你难过的事。

16、一定要有几个异性朋友，没有非分之想.就是关键时候,帮你出出主意的好友。

17、学会承受痛苦自己调整心态。有些话，适合烂在心里，有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。当

经历过，你成长了，自己知道就好。很多改变，不需要你自己说，别人会看得到

。

18、能不和人争吵尽量避免。一个发怒的人是很恐怖的，会因控制不了情绪变成疯子。忍耐然后

思索问题的根源最后平静心态解决它。

19、不管和谁有了矛盾和别扭，解决的时间不要超过24小时。否则麻烦会更多。在可以接受的范

围内，先道歉。让自己做做坏人不是件真的坏事。

生活可以很复杂以可以很简单，我们不要总是活在忧伤和痛苦之中，爱自己多一点！不为一些不

值得的事物而觉得生活总是那么的痛苦无助，人生的方向盘掌握在我们自己手里，有一天阳光大道等着我们走，放开自己，高傲的活着，只要自己幸福开心的，痛苦过去的伤就让他随风而去吧....告诉世界我们属于现在而不是过去！

Why to Delete a Facebook Account

2010-03-02T09:04:00.001-08:00

Facebook introduced me to world of internet social networking. I was in an orchestral board meeting and I mentioned "the rolodex." I got real laughter. "You use a rolodex?" I was bewildered. I had not heard that rolodex was out. "People use facebook now." Well, I didn't know that facebook had replaced the rolodex, but the one telling me was a high level manager in a large Bay Area company. I figured he must be right. "Rolodex" was truly funny to several people in that meeting.

I had joined facebook without really thinking about what I was doing. Sometimes I make picks for the games of the NCAA basketball tournament. I decided to make them on the CBS sportsline website. I liked the way that my choices looked in their proper place on the bracket on the computer screen. To use their bracket I had to join this "facebook" thing I had vaguely heard of. This was several years ago. After I signed up, I started getting requests in my email box, asking me to be a friend. I always said, "no," and deleted them. I hadn't even looked at my facebook site. About six months ago, I decided to become more active at facebook because it was something my son was going to be involved with and I wanted him to have accountability.

I learned a little about facebook. There were many aspects about it that I never liked. I was always uncomfortable there. Everyone in our family has now deleted his facebook account. I'm going to tell my problems with facebook. This will give someone reasons why to delete a facebook account. I'm not expecting that any one of these reasons will be enough to persuade someone to drop it like I did, but all of them combined should at least get you thinking. Once I deleted my account, I have not only not missed it, but it has been wonderful to lose it.

1. Facebook hinders scriptural values.

Facebook wasn't around when David Wells wrote No Place for Truth, but if it was, I think he would have written about it in that book.

Having turned inward in a search for meaning, we turn outward in a search for direction, scanning others for the social signals they emit regarding what is in and what is out, what is desirable and what is not. . . . This person is oriented not to inner values but to other people. It is in the peer group that acceptance is found and outcasts are named. . . . Where once people took pride in accomplishments and in their character, [they] think only of how they stand with others. . . . Once people worked to achieve tangible ends, to accomplish things. Now, such accomplishments are of far less significance than one's "image." Once people worked; now they manipulate. Once people sweated; now they seduce. Once people wished to be respected, to have their accomplishments recognized; now they wish to be envied, regardless of whether they are envied for anything they have actually accomplished.

This characteristic of modernity does not orient itself toward God, but toward people. It influences away from judging based on scriptural values and toward judging based upon a societal norm.

2. Facebook alters the biblical understanding of friendship.

To be a friend at facebook, just click. Normally I'm careful with whom I choose as friends. I might be able to be a friend to someone, but someone can't be a friend to me without fulfilling certain characteristics. James tells us (4:4) that friendship with the world is enmity with God. I can't have enmity with God, so I can restrain myself in my choice of friends. I'm to have no company with certain people and mark and avoid others. People in your "friends" list at facebook might be people that would never join my church. We don't believe or practice the same. I don't want to call them my friends. In so doing, I believe I'm just dumbing down what the Bible says about a friend. Here's something else that Dr. Carl Trueman said about it:

The way of connecting with people on Facebook is, apparently, to `friend' somebody. That the noun has become a verb is scarcely cause for concern; but the cheapening of the word surely is. Simply to be linked to someone on the internet is not true friendship; yet the use of the word creates the image that such is the case, or at least blurs the difference between casual internet acquaintance and somebody for whom one might have real affinity, affection, and concern. . . . Further, as the language of friendship is hijacked and cheapened by these internet social networks, this cheapening itself is part and parcel of a redefining of intimacy based upon the erosion of the boundaries between the public and private.

3. Facebook sets wicked things before your eyes.

I can't control the content of what I look at on my facebook page. I not only look at things I don't want to see, but I invite others to look at them when they look at my facebook page. Pictures, advertisements, and statements show up that I don't want to see or have others see either.

4. Facebook causes people to stumble.

I might be able to handle some of what my "friends" believe and practice, but not everyone can. I'd rather not introduce people to other people that I'd rather they didn't meet.

5. Facebook hinders real discernment.

If you were to judge each of your friends based upon a scriptural standard, you would probably lose a large number of them. But you don't. Why? You want to be sociable. It encourages you to make decisions based upon how you feel instead of what the Bible says.

6. Facebook wastes time.

I know you could argue with me on this one by pointing out other ways I waste time. You may think that I'm doing that by writing this blog. Fine. I think it's different but I'm not going to take the time to defend my blog writing right now. Here's how facebook uniquely wastes time. You open yourself up to social activity that you wouldn't choose as a good use of your minutes. You have a friend who isn't much of a friend. That friend writes on your wall. Now what do you have to do? You have to write something back to him. Don't you want to keep your choices about communication under control? You have created new things to take away time from something productive. If you have facebook, you've got to maintain it. Is it worth maintaining?

7. Facebook encourages busybodying.

I've had people ask to be my friend whom I know don't care about me. I know they don't really want to be my friend. What is it that people want? They want to find out what you're doing. I'm not ashamed of what I'm doing, but I believe that this kind of voyeurism fits the biblical criteria of the busybody. It influences others toward being one. "Why did so and so become his friend and not mine?" "I wonder why he has so many friends or who those people are."

8. Facebook hinders real relationships.

Do you think that a real relationship is sitting in front of a computer screen at 11:00 at night? When you could be talking to a real person either in person or by phone, you are constructing your facebook persona.

9. Facebook doesn't like bold, biblical Christianity.

Watch your "friends" list shrink when you confront people about something sinful on their wall, in a photo, or in a comment. Facebook isn't designed for confrontational Christianity, the kind we see Jesus do in the Bible. Typical facebook brings up something essentially secular, earthly, or temporal. You then interact on the same level, training yourself to do more of it. It is a bastion of compromise.

10. Facebook redefines biblical community.

In a real community people do things for each other. Facebook isn't about doing anything to help anyone. I'm not saying that nothing can be done, but it doesn't encourage that. It encourages a fake community. You can join a cause, but what does the cause really do? When you're asked to join a cause, for instance, against internet pornography. That is good. That's a wonderful thing to be against. I'm even for being in a group that is against it. It might even make me think more about being against it. But how are you helping get rid of pornography? What you could do is talk to someone that has an immodest picture up and ask him to take it down. And I really am part of a group that is already against it---my church.

11. Facebook offers way too much acceptance.

Much of what is on facebook should be rejected. However, facebook is all about affirming. You affirm people that really need confrontation. Since very often you can't really know the person you're talking to, you could easily be reaffirming someone with a lukewarm, worldly brand of Christianity that isn't honoring to Christ.

12. Facebook is too public.

Yes, too public. What do I mean? It offers people an opportunity to snoop around and get information. I recognize that you have means on facebook to control that, but it still is a place for trolling perverts. I don't want to be on the same playing field with them or encourage others to be there with me....and him.

13. Facebook preys on fleshly tendencies of man's nature.

Facebook makes you think too much about yourself. Your status shouldn't matter. Someone shouldn't have to return a comment just because you've made one. Facebook fits the narcissism of our day in which men have become lovers of their own selves. What difference does it make how many friends you have as long as you have the friend of sinners Himself, the Lord Jesus.

14. Facebook breaks down decent language.

You can talk right on facebook, but it doesn't encourage it. What it encourages is drivel. We should want to elevate one another, to bring up the level of discourse. That doesn't occur when these abbreviations and slang are used. Young people even feel pressured to bow to talking like this. It attacks spelling, grammar, syntax, and cogent thought. It's lazy speech and many times gutter language.

15. Facebook spawns fraudulence and hypocrisy.

You don't have to be who you are on facebook. You can create a whole different persona of yourself that is a lie. It spawns this kind of activity. Here's what Trueman wrote on this:

On Facebook, I can be anybody I want to be: an eighteen year old Californian with a six-pack, good teeth, a sun tan and a pilot's license; or even a 25 year old blonde beauty queen from North Carolina with a degree in astrophysics. I can become the ultimate in self-created beings - a factor which, I am sure, also partially explains the massive, if little noted, popularity of role-playing video games in the modern world. In virtual world, be it Facebook or the undersea city portrayed in Bioshock, I can be anyone I choose to be. I am the Creator; or at least, I have the potential to think I am.

Even if you sort of know who you're talking to, the person can take advantage of the anonymity of it.

16. Facebook tempts toward infidelity.

I've seen married women talking to younger men on facebook, legitimizing this kind of relationship and giving a false boost to the boy's ego. Her picture might be the most inviting, even a little risque, putting thoughts in his mind that he shouldn't have. Men like to hear someone boast on them, and perhaps they're not getting enough of that at home. These places and others stimulate that kind of activity. Men and women mix in unhealthy ways that would be discouraged in a different setting. Her husband may not be talking to her like she is talked to. She doesn't have to work at it. She can just go to her facebook to get what she needs.

17. Facebook makes you a consumer in a day when we need more producers.

Facebook is a company. They sell ads. They make money off of you. You may not buy anything, but you are another statistic for them to use to sell ads. In other words, facebook is using you. You may think that you are using facebook, but I would say that the owners think otherwise, especially as they laugh all the way to the bank.

18. Facebook is an easy temptation when you need to be getting something done---really done.

You need to write. Go to facebook instead. Homework not done. Gotta do facebook. Need to memorize some Scripture. Facebook is there. Haven't exercised. Oh well, let's facebook. Trueman again writes:

Well, the virtual world is new but it is here to stay; and it will no doubt continue to shape human behavior and self-understanding. We cannot ignore it but neither should we simply allow it to dictate to us who we are and how we think. Thus, we must teach people by precept and example that real life is lived primarily in real time in real places by real bodies. Pale and pimply bloggers who spend most of their spare time onanistically opining about themselves and their issues and in befriending pals made up of pixels are not living life to the full; nor are those whose lives revolve around videogames; rather they are human amoebas, subsisting in a bizarre non-world which involves no risk to themselves, no giving of themselves to others, no true vulnerability, no commitment, no self-sacrifice, no real meaning or value. To borrow a phrase from Thoreau, the tragedy of such is that, when they come to die, they may well discover that they have never actually lived.

For myself, I rejoice that I grew up before the web and the videogame supplanted the real world of real friendships, real discussions, real lives. I did not spend my youth growing obese and developing Vitamin D deficiency in front of an illuminated screen, living my life through the medium of pixels.

19. Facebook causes more facebook.

Very few people could handle facebook in a scriptural manner. It offers so many temptations. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

泪了～

2010-03-02T00:38:00.000-08:00

爱情只属于俊男美女么？

这次真的是泪了～

我以为我很坚强，但是当我知道事情的真相的时候，心很痛～

我以为他也喜欢我，所以才会对我好～

原来真的是我自作多情～

如果不是喜欢我，为什么要对我那么好?

你以为对每个人好就是好人的表现吗？

不是这样的，你会让人误会的～

我很幸苦，很受伤，又不可以让好朋友知道，免得她觉得难过～

他喜欢上你不是你的错，只是我真的觉得很难过很难过～

好想回家，只有家人不会嫌弃我～

我就是我，为什么我找不到喜欢我的人？

我真的那么不漂亮吗？我真的不吸引人吗？我的条件真的那么差吗？

找不到自信，找不到～

其实也不可以怪别人，是我自己傻～

傻女，不是每个对你好的人你就要喜欢他～

你要学习把自己的心收好，不要轻易把心给出去～

当心碎的时候，只会让自己很难过很难过～

我需要时间康复～我需要时间冷静～真的很难过，真的真的很难过～

恩恩

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做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友

2010-02-28T05:07:00.000-08:00

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，

但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种，

彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友……

也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。

也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。

也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。

也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。

也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。

也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线……

彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉，

仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。

但是彼此心底清楚，

对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的……

即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，

还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋，

心里却会觉得胃疼……

对方遇到困难时，

会尽全力伸出援助之手，

不会计较谁又欠了谁。

对方生病了，

会缴尽脑汁找药方，

恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁……

每个人这辈子，

心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，

很矛盾的行为。

一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然发现这样最好。

宁愿这样关心对方的心情，

总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害……

做不成男女朋友，

当个特别的朋友，

有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢

很多的感情，

都败在了现实的面前……

友情可以演变成为爱情，

爱情最终进化成为亲情，

彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情……

人生不过百年……

能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，

能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，

能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，

能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！

珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉

如果我只是【过客】，请不要对我好！

2010-02-25T07:18:00.000-08:00

如果我真的很不重要，如果我只是你生命中的过客

那么请你，请你不要对我好，

不要让我发现自己已经习惯你、依赖你到无法自拔。

从一开始，我只是陪你走过一段人生的小路程。

如果注定会分离，就别让我去抽离这种习惯！

因为伤不起，因为承受不起。

也许曾经想过封闭起自己，

只是遇到了你，以及你们，

让我觉得有支撑下去的勇气！

可是有的时候真的是太在乎，太容易受伤了。

不经意的知道很多。

是什么感觉呢？就像自己落水了，然后在绝望的那一刻，

有一只手伸过来带给我生的希望，

就在我真的真的想要把自己生命，

所有的希望交个那个人的时候，

却丢下我走了，任由我往水里沉！

从天堂掉下地狱。

知不知道，你真的对我是很重要，很重要的，

但是当我知道原来你不曾像我这样想过，

当我知道你根本就不曾在乎过，

或者把我当一个玩耍的工具时，

才觉得自己是真的傻，真的笨吧！

像以前遇到的很多人，说着很好听很好听的话，

让我以为自己仿佛是他的整个世界，

可是就要去相信去接受的时候，

却让我知道，原来一切都是假的。

为什么我拼命告诉自己不能轻易相信别人？

却还是选择了相信。我相信的人，

你对我很重要，或许我是真的没有长大，

所以我喜欢去相信你，去依赖你！

比其他人更在乎你的一言一行，也许你不曾感觉到，

但那是真的，那种感情，跟爱情，友情，亲情都没有关系。

特别得说不出来。

有一天，你出什么事了，我也会焦虑会害怕，

有一天，自己很难过很难过了，想要逃的时候，也怕你会担心。

把你当作我生命中很重要的人，但是有一天如果你不管我了，

丢下我了，连话都不想跟我说了，也许不仅仅是难过，还有……

如果我真的是无所谓有无所谓无的，

那么从一开始就别对我好，

因为也许你一点点的温暖就会想让我拥有整个太阳！

不要给我施舍的好，不要给我同情的好，一旦我习惯了这些好，

当你转身即走的时候，留下的除了一道道伤痕还有什么呢？

这是自己曾经很想说的话，现在转过来！

现在想来，这只是青春的必经之路，

有痛苦，有甜蜜，回过头来看，

留下的只是淡淡的回忆！～

痛了...自然就会放手了~

2010-02-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。

他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”

和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”

他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”

和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。

苦者被烫到马上松开了手。

和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过

因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情

他不是看不到

他只是装作看不到

或者他根本不想看到

你觉得自己很喜欢他

甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他

你用尽全力对他好

把他看的比自己还重要

有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了

然而你有没有想过

这并不在你的责任范围

而且很有可能他是在躲着你

他受不了你对他那么好

不要一直发短信给他

不要一直找他

你也许只是想找他说说话

你觉得那很正常不算苛求

但是也许他并不这么想

记住你的想法不代表他的想法

你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗

你扪心自问一下

你确定不用他回报什么吗

那为什么你会难过

若是真的一无所求

你又怎么会觉得难过呢

所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的

也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出

有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你

因为他不想亏欠你

别事事为他担心为他张罗

你觉得他没有你不行

你觉得别人做不到你那么完善

但是你要清楚

你不是他要的那个人

你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做

自然会有人为他担心为他着急

不用你来费心

那个位置本来就不是你的

你何必硬要挤上去呢

也许曾经你们是相爱过的

但是请记住那是曾经

过去的就是过去了

如果大家真的适合在一起

那么当初就不会分开

无论是谁提的分手都一样

这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的

不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了

分开以后

如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话

那么这段感情就是过去了

他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合

而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己

你们当初如何如何相爱

不可能那么容易就分手的

这样只会让你更加难以放弃

却不会让对方再次回头选择你

除非大家都有意要和好

否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的

所以尽早打消这个念头吧

至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白

不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜

这样做一点意思也没有

他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你

你说道理你都懂只是你做不好

不是你做不好是你不想做

你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧

别说什么他离不开你的

其实分明就是你离不开他

他若是离不开你

他就不会不要你

整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你

不懂事的人是你

难道你没看出来吗

喜欢他不是你的错

想关心他不是你的错

控制不住自己不是你的错

但是那是你的方式

傻孩子．

忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．

那些．都已是记忆．

缺失并不可怕．

可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．

勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．

这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．

这也是你．成长中的你．

这个你．正在逐渐死去．

新的你．即将重生．

找寻你的路．你的未来．

你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．

做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子

你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．

付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．

绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．

那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．

开始新的习惯吧．

习惯．早上不再有人工闹铃．

习惯．每天一个人生活．

习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．

你逃不掉．逃不掉的．

那么．就勇敢面对．现实．

现实是．她已离开．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．

好．好．尽情发泄吧．

剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．

泄完了．就要振作．

看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．

还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．

所以．你并不孤独．

正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．

别哭．别再哭．

不值得．真的．不值得了

．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．

开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．

做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．

所有的人都对你有信心．

所以．你也要充满信心．

你是坚强的．积极的．乐观的．洒脱的．

以前是．以后也会是．

总有一天．那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活．

傻孩子．

生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．

别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．

你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．

现在的生活．不是你想要的．

为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．

给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好,

你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。

当某天，你被伤害，想起我。

那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的

对你好了。。

。
因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。

原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。

其实这个世界，真的没有非要谁不可，

走自己的路，别回头

Sleepless Night~

2009-11-28T10:08:00.000-08:00

Again, a sleepless night~Tomorrow is a very important day~Actually every Sunday is very important to me~

I was trying to sleep early few hours ago and since i failed to do so~I starting reading book, hopefully can get to sleep~However, after i finished the whole book, I still couldn't get to sleep~

So i on my laptop and get online~The 1st thing i did was on Facebook and on my RC~Haha, hopefully I'm not addicted to Facebook~^^

It is not a good thing to be addicted to Facebook~I dun wan to act like tat irresponsible doctor who caused his patient's death just because he's addicted to Facebook when he's having an operation~

Anyway, then I think of my blog~It has been a long time since I last blog~So decided to write a simple blog and also to try to feel sleepy and get back to sleep~Ah~

Till now, I'm still awake~What else can I do to get to sleep? Every time when I'm over-excited or nervous or stressed, I couldn't get to sleep~I really dun wan to admit this cause it shows that I'm a person who cannot endure stress which is not true~(At least to me it is not the case @.@)

Recently, The thought of having someone beside me keep on pester me~I keep on telling myself it's not the time yet and also I'm not sure what I wan~I'm currently staying alone in Penang~Without my family and friends (I mean U friends), it's kind of lonely and that's y the thought keep on pestering me~

Of course, I have my church's family to support me, somehow I'm feeling quite empty~It's a feeling very hard to describe~N considering my age, for 21 years, I've not been in a relationship before~Haha~I know it's very bad to get into a relationship just because I feel like getting it~That's y I keep on persuade myself not to do silly thing, but it's very hard for me to get rid of the thought to be silly~Ah~

I dunno what I want now~Things seem to be complicated or just me making things complicated? I dunno~Okay, I know what I should do now~Stop typing and try to get back to sleep~My brain is not working properly and that's y I'm talking nonsense here~K then, I shall stop here~ll try to update asap though I know nobody is reading~

=En En=

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2009-11-03T13:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Lai, I haven't my blog for a long time d~

Sometimes when I've mood to post, my internet is not working so i cannot do anything about it~

There're also time where the internet is functioning well while i dun hav the mood to write anything~

Today's great~I've the mood and the internet is functioning well and so I'm writing my blog post now~

Ok, I know I'm just talking nonsense all the way, but my nonsense got points wor~^^

Anyway, lets get back to the topic~

Now, it's 5 o'clock in the morning~Dun think i wake up so early to study la~I'm not tat guai~

I'm just having sleeping problem recently~

Starting fr last Sat (31/10/09), I've been having problem to sleep tight~

I'm tired, extremely tired but i just can't sleep tight~

I'll get up in the middle of the night and struggling to get back to sleep~

I didn't get any nap in the afternoon, so it's impossible to say tat i sleep too much in the day time tat's y i can't sleep at night~this theory doesn't apply on me~

Is it really because of stressed? Stressed could be desserts if you could reverse~

I've been working hard to achieve tat~

I'm trying to take things easy and make myself relax~

May ah, I'm not lying about everything is ok~

seriously everything is ok and under control~

but y can't i just sleep tight?! I tend to get very excited and awake~

My body is tired but I'm mentally awake~They are not coordinating well~

Sigh~How ah? I dun think my body can take this in long term~

In fact, i can feel tat my body's protesting~they nid sleep, tight and enough sleep~

Sigh, wat can i do to make myself asleep?!

Act, I'm having another problem in mind~

I've been teaching tuition and not getting any paid~

Not only tat, I've been paying petrol wif my own money~

I dunno how 2 tell the person in charge that even if u're not planing to pay me, could u pls kindly cover my petrol's fees?!

I feel like I'm putting my time, money and effort and gain nothing~

I mean of cuz i get satisfaction as a teacher to see my students improve~

but other than that, I'm doing for dunno wat reason and it's very illogical~(somehow stupid)

Well, I'm still thinking of ways to sort things out, but I'm hoping the person in charge could be more automatic la~

Talking about money is tough~

I think i shall stop here temporary~

I need to try again to get back to sleep~

I'll try to update more often, here and there, bit by bit~

Love u all~

=En En=
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Mid-autumn Festival~

2009-10-03T07:29:00.000-07:00

A lot of things happen recently yet I've not updated for long~Well, where should i start?

Ok, start wif my U-life~

Currently, I'm doing my last assignment and after that ll be my Final~

So really need to be prepared~

Recently, I have got a car from someone because I need it to work~

So working part time now as a tuition teacher~

Its not an easy job absolutely and somehow it's tougher than teaching kindergarten kids~

Sigh~But no worry, I'll hang on and do my best~

Today is mid-autumn festival~Wat ppl usually do on this day?

Eat mooncake, look at the moon, drink green tea and display lantern~

Well, i did none of it~I'm not feeling well act~

I din sleep well last nite, then today I'm supposed to help out in Dewan Sri Pinang for a concert~

Well, I'm asked to reach there by 12~

So i went out at 11 to make sure i reach there early~

I'm driving alone so the day before i hav asked my fren to teach me how 2 go thr~

My dear fren did bring me all the way to Dewan Sri Pinang and all the way back to my house~

So i thought everything ll be ok and 1 hour earlier is more than enough~

However, I took the wrong way and straight away I'm on the Penang Bridge where there's no turning point back to Penang~

Sigh~wat can i do?

I go all the way to Butterworth and then all the way back to Penang~

I buy the lesson for RM 7, excluding the petrol~

poor me~Anyway, I'm still grateful for today~

Thanks a lot Guo Feng Gor Gor, he guides me all the way back to Penang from Butterworth~

Phew~At tat time, nobody pick up my phone but him~

Ya, i should treat him a mooncake~Haha~

K then, i noe this post sounds a bit bored and meaningless~

Basically its jz a brief report on my life~ll update in detail soon, I hope~

Miss n love u lot~

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A Day Full of Nonsense~

2009-09-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

Last night, I came back late. By the time I reached home is 2 a.m. Yap, I know it is very late and I should have gone back home earlier. The story goes this way. In the afternoon (4.9.2009), May called. She asked me to go for lunch with her. But I’m so bad, I rejected her for Special A Class (it is a Japanese animation). I keep on watching and watching and watching. I do nothing else but watching the animation. At last, May called again, asking me to go for dinner with her. I feel so bad when I know all the while she has been alone all by herself. Then I asked myself, “What kind of friend you are? You leave your friend alone for animation?”

So I went out with her for dinner and movie. It is fun. Really, I have no regret for spending time with her cause she’s my best friend in U. The best part comes after movie. We want to go back to USM from Gurney and passed by Green Lane Mcd to get an ice-cream. Guess what? We just realized how big Penang could be. We totally lost our way. I still remember, we came out from Gurney at around 11.30p.m and we spent more than 1 hour going back to USM without getting the ice-cream. Sigh, horrible? I know it’s horrible but I can do nothing about it. Anyway, on our way back to USM, somehow Won Lin appears on my mind and I just feel like calling her. Thanks to her, we didn’t go round and round the Penang the whole night. We rushed back to USM and decided to give up our precious, sweet ice-cream. So after hanging out with Won Lin, we go back home. Guess what I did after I reached home? Yap, of course, I take my shower 1st. Then, continue with my animation. So I ended up sleeping at 4 in the morning.

I tell myself; no way am I going to watch anything the next day. I really need to study. So here I am, after posting this post, I’m going to study. So let’s pray together that I would really study. Who knows what will I do after half an hour? Haha. I shall end here. Take care and have a nice day~

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No title~

2009-09-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

I always feel that it is very tough for me to think of a good title for my blog post. Today, I have decided not to put any title for my post. I just want to share my feeling and thought and why should put a title for it. I’m not making the story and therefore, I have no title for it. Sorry for all the lame sentences. I just feel like doing some nonsense.

Today, Won Lin is asking help from us. She really needs somebody to help her in her debate circle. Actually, I really want to join her but thinking of every night’s stay back and preparation for the competition, I think I’m too old for it. Okay, I admit that it is just an excuse. I couldn’t commit in it as I could foresee the result. I don’t want to create more trouble for myself and I absolutely wouldn’t want to spoil the friendship between me and Won Lin. By the way, why am I so interested in joining the debate team in the first place? Well, I think I could develop well and learn a lot of new things from it. I joined debate before when I’m in form 3. It was a sweet memory; at least, thinking back from now, it is indeed sweet. Actually, it wasn’t that sweet at that time. We do quarrel and the team doesn’t really function well. Though I’m the leader for the team, I don’t feel my presence is important in the team. It seems to me like I’m the least important person in the team and even without me, they can still make it and maybe even better than when I’m in the team. Opps, I’m a bit off.

Back to the topic, so what is my topic? I don’t even have a topic and that’s why my thoughts run wildly and randomly. Normally, I don’t have class on Thursday. Thanks to our National Day (Independence Day) we are forced to make class replacement. The morning class is not that interesting, probably because all of us are only half-awake and could hardly focus on the discussion. By the time we are awake, the class ends. So I don’t really contribute much in the morning’s discussion. At night, I have another class replacement. Well, night class is always very excited. I’m sorry that I have not finished the book when I enter the class. Anyway, it is a very interesting class. We’re discussing about the book “The Buddha of the Suburbia” by Hanif Kureishi. I cannot comment anything about the book as I have not completed the book. I’ll share my thought when I complete the book. ^^

The whole day I feel like watching movie. Too bad, I never get the chance to watch it tonight. There are a lot of nice movies but I just can’t get companion to watch with me. Sigh.

My mind cannot function well anymore for the time being. Guess I’m too tired, so I better get a early rest and have a sweet dream. Take care everyone and have a nice day.

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Just some Sharing~~

2009-08-30T02:20:00.000-07:00

I’m feeling very upset and tired now. Today is my 1st time to lead the worship team in Sg. Ara Baptist Church. I have been worship leader at the age of 14 in my own church. I’m not trying to show off or whatever, but I think I have done my best today.

I’am so nervous until I can’t sleep tight last night, I keep on thinking what I’m going to do today.
I keep on telling myself not to be nervous and it’s better for me to sleep early than imagine all kind of nonsense. I just can’t help to be nervous. It’s a totally different church, different people and different way.

I appreciate the church for giving me the chance to serve. It’s not easy, I know, to give the opportunity to the newbie to lead the “worship leader” role. I really think that I’ve done my best and after the Sunday Service, I still think that I’ve done a great job. I got a lot of good feedback and of course, I’m happy. Not to say I’m proud but happy in a way that I’ve done things well.
There’s one particular feedback that really make me think about it over and over.
“It” is saying (sorry, no offend, I’m not trying to objectify the person, just that I don’t want to make the person’s gender obvious, so I use “it”) that “Well, perhaps you have done quite well today and I could see the potential in you. But, somehow I think I can’t feel the existence of the Holy Spirit through your leading. Perhaps you’re not well-prepared”.

Actually, I feel very hurt at that time. It’s assumption that “I’m not well-prepared” hurts a lot. I mean you could say things like you have space of improvement or I believe you can do it better next time. “I think maybe you’re not well-prepared” really hurt me. I mean how you judge a person to say that he/she is not well-prepared when you’re not with he/her when she’s preparing the whole thing?

That’s my 1st thought when it’s talking to me. I’m quite upset but I manage to calm myself and show a very calm look and even to discuss the whole situation with it. After the conversation, I’m feeling very depress and I just wish I could find someone to talk about it. Is it the worship leader’s role to make the audiences feel the existence of the Holy Spirit? I thought my job is to lead the audiences to worship God and somehow the audiences have to play their role? All the thoughts keep running on my mind. I can’t stop myself from feeling upset and depress.

Today, the pastor is teaching us to do according to God’s will and the key is to be humble. We have to let go and let God. So I started thinking, the comment from “it”, is it the clue that God wants me to think about it? Am I being too proud of myself and forget to give all the honors to God? Am I being very self-centered that what people said about me is unacceptable to me?
I was struggling to come out with a conclusion. I hope that someone could just tell me that “Yeah, it’s your fault and you should change” or “Nope, it has nothing to do with you. You don’t have to be so upset”. Arrgh~ So what should I do?

I’m thinking that maybe “it” doesn’t mean the way I interpret and things are not just as bad as I thought. Perhaps I should just treat it as a reminder and try to do better next time. Yeah~
I shouldn’t be so upset, it’s nothing big deal. Everything will be fine. Yeah~

By the way, I have just a very nice movie just now during youth. It makes me think about it and maybe some of the concept I could apply in my daily life. It’s a testimony about how God could do things which are out of your expectation and imagination. The key is whether you have faith in God. Sometimes, actually every time, I’m very proud of myself. I depend a lot on myself, not that I never pray or distrusted God. I always think that I should at least do something so that I could lighten God’s burden. How silly I am?!

Can you imagine? I’m being so kind to offer some help to the almighty God. Yea, this movie makes me think and know how silly I am. God doesn’t need my help at all. He’s the creator of the world and he’s the master of my life. I might face a lot of difficulty and I might not be able to settle it myself. What can I do? Just leave it to God. Have faith, pray and leave it to God. He’ll make things done out of your imagination and expectation.

I have learned my lesson today. I just have to do my best and leave the rest to God. “With God, everything is possible”. Maybe I could just apply this theory to my sharing earlier. Why should I be so upset? God is taking care of everything. What I need to do is do my best and leave the rest to God.

Basically, these are something I would like to share today. Hopefully you have gained something from it. I’m not here to preach or teach, it just a sharing of my experience. Take care and have a nice day.

Here are sharing from my fren.
Always always remember,
When you can’t, GOD can..
When you are the neediest, He is the most sufficient.
When you are completely helpless, He is the most helpful.
When you are totally dependent, He is absolutely dependable.
When you are the weakest, He is the most able.
When you are most alone, He is intimately present.
When you feel the most useless, He is preparing you.

When it is the darkest, He is the Only Light you need..
When you feel the least secure, He is your Rock and Fortress..
When you are the most humble, He is most gracious.
In the course of life,
God has a plan for you.
In the hard times of life,
God has a HOPE for you..
In all of life,
God holds a LOVE for you….

I miss my home and I haven’t bought the ticket to go home during Raya. Ah, May, help me~^^

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Happy 21st B'day to MYSELF~~

2009-08-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

Finally 21 years old d...

Time really flies and now I'm already 21 years old....

From today onwards, I need to be responsible for myself d....

I'm so blessed to hav a very nice family....

A humuor daddy, caring mummy and a lovely sister....oh ya, not fogetting my PET dog, Blessing...^^

Looking back, everything's so well-planned...

I hav no trouble with my family or friends...

everything is so smooth...

Though I almost lost my mummy when I'm young, but God is so good to me that He actually save mummy's life...

Moving from Penang to J.B, i hav no problem wif settling myself....

school life is memorable and i hav some very good frens that play an important role in my life....

I hav Jing Jing, Charmaine, Lee Ying, Wai Xin, Kok Kok and a lot more (Sorry, if i left anybody's name here)

Attending form 6 is another exciting life...

Its tough and boring, i wont deny that fact...

but its wonderful with Lai Lai, Vitha and Anna...

Lai Lai, especially, we eat together, play together, study together, lame together and her ultimate dream is bathe together...(sorry ya Lai, i nvr fulfil ur wish)

U life all together different from my secondary school life...

I get to meet May, Won Lin, Z, Maggie, Kah Voon, Yi Feng, my BIG wife...

not forgetting my housemates and my ex-roomates...

May alwiz bring me everywhere i need to go...

she's a very nice gal and she flies all the way from KL to JB jz to attend my b'day party...

so sweet of her...

My Lin Lin's a smart gal, taught me a lot of reality fact...

not forgetting Z, (my Fai Fai), haha, help me a lot to get through when I'm having troubles...

He's a very helpful person, he would spend time explaning to me the things that taught by teacher...a very intelligent guy...

My church family in Sg Ara Baptist Church is another sweet story...

They accept me as one of them and taught me a lot of things...

bout bible, bout the attitude in serving God, bout love n etc...

So i hav my second home in Penang...^^

Wow, so many ppl appear in my life and i cant possibly mention all...

but I really appreciate whatever u guys hav done for me...

Again, I wanna thank to those who attended my b'day party on 22nd of Aug...

thank you those who celebrated my b'day on 24th of Aug in Sg. Ara Baptist church...

thank you those who sent me all kind of b'day wishes through facebook or sms or e-mail...

and thank you in advance to those who are going to celebrate my b'day wif me ltr...

I feel really touched for everything u hav done for me...

Thank you for everything and lastly, thank God for everything...

He's the reason we know each other and he's the master of my life....

I shall stop here...If so happen I miss out ur name, sorry bout that.....

Take care and hav a nice day...

miss n love u lot...

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Jane Eyre: A Book Review

2009-08-11T06:52:00.000-07:00

Hi all, long time din blog..(not tat long actually)

Well, y i keep on blogging bout books recently...

Eh, I'm studying Literature so basically I'm dealing with BOOKS~~

so here I'm, sharing my oral presentation that I'm going to present tomorrow morning...

Jane Eyre is one of my favourite book...^^

I really love the story and the way how a lady fights for her principles...

there are a lot of times she's facing all kind of struggles, and she tends to give up...

but she prays to God and she takes the right path....

I admire her attitude in facing life...

She holds on to her principles....

I hope tomorrow's presentation ll runs smoothly and really hope that they ll enjoy my presentation as I really want to share with them...

Everything ll be fine i hope and i jz nid 2 present my best...

Cant wait for tomorrow presentation...

Yeah...n I'm going home tomorrow's night...

so cool ya...^^

mummy misses me a lot la...wahahah...

k then, again, a reminder....

I'm having my 21st B'day Party on 22nd of Aug at 7p.m in my house....

See u guys then...

miss n love u lot...

muack muack...

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Animal Farm~

2009-08-08T01:00:00.001-07:00

Animal Farm by George Orwell is a famous novel I guess...

n i'm currently doing a assignment on it...

my focus is on one of the minor chracters in the novel~~~~Boxer....

Boxer is the strongest animal in the farm but sad to say he is not intelligent or i would rather say he's stupid....

Actually, Boxer is born to be a tragedy cuz he doesnt has his own thought...

he follows everything blindly...

a person without his own thought would not be able to survive..

even he/she is able, her life would be in a miserable state...

Poor Boxer, he should be partly responsible with his tragic ending...

Things would be different if he has his own thought.

Sigh..Anyway, i'm done wif Boxer and i'm having lot of fun dealing wif him...

hopefully Dr. Suzana ll enjoy reading my assignment..

I hope wat i hav done is not nonsense to her...

Haha...

ll upload new post soon...

see ya..

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Happy B'day,my dear Lai Lai~^^

2009-08-01T07:18:00.001-07:00

Happy 21st B'day~~

A Fine Day~~~

2009-07-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened today...

everything is fine and smooth....

as usual, morning 9a.m tutorial class...

today, we discuss bout tree diagram for morphology...

nothing much, it's jz a revise 4 me as i hav learned it before...

then my English class...

today's quite fun...

we hav impromptu presentation...

its so fun to see other ppl's funny reaction...

ya, there's a question about if u're a rabbit and u met a hungry tiger, how would u persuade the tiger not to eat u?

my answer is

" Dear Mr. Tiger, all animals are equal in the world, so you shouldnt eat me cuz we're supposed to be fren. Friends are meant to help each other not to hurt each other. I know u're hungry, but I'm seriously not supposed to be ur food. I can introduce some nice food for u. Btw, U hav to remember an important phrase "FOUR LEGS GOOD, TWO LEGS BAD". So both of us are four legs, so we're the good one in the world. Those who hav two legs are bad and you should eat them. If u dunno which is bad, I'll show u. So lets make a deal, U dun eat me and i fine food for u. Cool? "

Well, act i din get to answer in the class, cuz my number is very behind...

but everytime when ppl's answering i'm act having my own script inside my head...

so though it's bored sometimes, i hav my own fun in a way...

too bad is jz tat i din get to share wif others...haha..^^

afternoon class is kind of confused...

i mean about thr morph...

i kind of understand but still couldnt really make my mind clear...

so i still nid time to really digest it...

trust me, i ll come out wif a conclusion de...^^

so tat's all for today...

see ya....

miss n love u lot..

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A Pack day~~

2009-07-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

Tuesday's alwiz my busiest day....

I hav 3 major class in a row....

so basically early in the morning...

9-11a.m, I hav HXE 210 which is 19th and 20th century novel...

its a very interesting class....

it involves a lot of discussion but normally i'll remain quiet in the class...

it doesnt mean tat i've nothing to say...

it's jz tat i din get the chance to speak out my mind...

n also i'm too shy to speak in front of the crowd...

then straight after tat class i hav another major class fr 11-1p.m...

this course is HET 213- Structure and Grammar in Eng...

basically, its dealing with morphology and syntax...

again, the class is an intesting one...

the lecturer is so lame tat he brings lot of laughter in the class...

i enjoy his class very much...^^

finally, i get to hav 1 hour break in between to hav my lunch and also to relax my mind...

the next class is the tough one and the lecturer is very strict...

the next course is HXE 211 which is Literary Criticism....

wow...I alwiz feel so tension when i enter the class...

we're learning colonialism, post-colonialism, colonialist discourse, orientalism....

these are the tool for us to use in anlysing a text which could be in any form like poem, short stories and even novel...

it's actually quite nice if the lecturer is not the strict...

anyway, i got my two assignments today...

cool rite?

one is due on 14 of Aug and the other one is on 25th of Aug...

they keep on warning us not to submit late...

no worry, i'm a good student...

so i'll surely submit it on time de...haha...^^

k then, shall stop here...

ll update soon...so keep the tune...

miss n love u lot...

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Weird Case to Share~~~

2009-07-25T06:49:00.000-07:00

I dunno wat happen recently...

stranger keep on pestering me through my phone...

I'm trying to call my fren to ask him stuff...

but accidentally call to the wrong number...

so after that that guy keep on calling n calling though i told him its wrong number...

finally, my fren helps me to pick up n scolded him n he dint call me after tat...

phew...before tat he miss called me 15 days without me picking up once...

seriously mad ppl...

today, again, somebody msg me asking me how r u....

so i ask him who r u? (cuz i jz changed a new phone so i lost almost every contact...)

then he told me he's looking for someone name "Engrey"....

so i told him sorry, i'm not...

then he started all kind of nonsense...

asking me wat's my name, how old n stuff...

i tried to ignore him then he said he comfirm i'm Engrey and said i hate him....

Ah~~~~~~~~

i told him again I'm not his fren n stop talking to stranger....

wat happen to my phone num a?

did anyone simply give away my phone num??????

Ok, forget it...

i jz pretend i see nothing and stop calling or msg me.....

I DUNNO WHO U ARE~~~~~~

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I MISS LAI HUI YING~~~~

2009-07-23T06:44:00.000-07:00

Wow, it has been a long time since i last blogged.

Not tat i purposely dun wan to blog but it's jz due to bad internet connection n of cuz buzy uni life...

Then nobody is rushing me to update my blog so i take my own time doing other stuff lo...

well, this's my 3rd week in uni...

its amazing i'm now in my 2nd year.....

time really flies....

but i'm grateful with wat i hav gone through...

i hav learn a lot...and sometimes i paid a lot to learn a lesson...

I'm glad i can learn by just paying money...bcuz there are so much things u learn wif regret and there's no turning point...

for me, i'm able to make a U-turn....

its a blessing to get the chance to learn...

now everything is settled, i dun cry anymore...

i can face my struggles and challenges calmly d...

everything is fine..

ok, complete talking bout uni, lets talk bout my old frens...

Sorry Jing n Lai Lai, i couldnt make it for ur 21st b'day celebration...

no worry, u guys can come 2 my 21st b'day party instead..Yay...

haha...Lai Lai, of cuz i miss u a lot ya...

I feel so sry i couldnt make it for ur b'day party...

but i got training tat time...

so i couldnt make it...

sorry...

but we'll see each other soon..

take good care of urself...

i'll blog as often as i could now...

cuz i hav my very own internet connection...

everything's so cool n settled...

do check up my blog ya...

miss n love u lot...

muacks...

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1st week in Uni~~~~

2009-07-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

Love the World~Part 2

2009-05-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hi all, so the three of us are the winners in the camp...Fr left, Me, being the 3rd position, they said that I'm the loser. The middle one, My dear Lai Lai, being the 2nd position, claimed that she's the winner..So, the right one, my dear sis, leads the champion...Yeah...^^

Me n Lai, so sweet..see the pink flower on her hand..She's too naughty, so the sweety Jie Jie (the clown) gives her a ballon, so that she could sit down quietly n not make noise. Haha..(Sorry, Lai, this's my blog, so i talk nonsense also wont kena tahanan ISA..Haha...)

Zhen has been bully Lai Lai in the camp...so this's her tragic ending...haha...Dun simply bully others ya...^^

This's just some acting..so it doesnt look as real as the previous pic..Lai force me to kiss her and then she act pity then my sis take the pic..haha..^^

This's Tzi Mang...she's so cute right? So i took her pic lo...^^

This is the environment friendly workshop...they are learning through watching some video clip...that little indian boy couldnt see the screen and so he's doing nonsense...haha....

Again, we're still in the environment friendly workshop...they're listening to T. Anna...can see that it's a really interesting class and everyone's paying full attention..^^

The environment friendly workshop's decoration...so nice le..got pond, flowers, fish and trees....

Another workshop...Its vegetables and fruits workshop..they are doing some art craft...using poster colour and vege to make photo frame..oh, that's T. Lina...

After listening to T' Lina's explanation, they start doing on their own..wow..so colourful...^^

They try making stuff by using vege and fruit..they show their thought with creative decoration..dun ask me wat's this...it's jz sth they wan 2 show..haha...^^

All kind of fruits and vege for them to see, feel, touch, smell and taste...^^

They are trying to introduce healthy food and unhealthy food..see how creative is the ticer, stapple the food on the tree..haha..^^

The animal's workshop...These are the kids i lead this two days..N the ticers incharge are T. Mariana and T. May..they learn about the endangered animals and know how to protect them...They also learn bout pets and their responsibility to hav a pet..

I only get to introduce three workshops..they are actually two more workshop to go...but due to some technical prob, i'm not able to show here...i'll try to get other pictures ready asap and post them here...so be patient..see ya soon..

miss and love u lot...oh ya, before i forget..

I, Grace Yeoh would like to say thank you to Miss Lai Hui Ying for her help in these two days' camp. We're sorry for not having the chance to treat you. Please give me a chance to treat you when you're free. Miss and love you lot.

K then, done my blog..see ya...ll be going to KL tomorrow..Yeah...^^

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Dark Room Exp~~

2009-05-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Weird title? well, this's sth i jz go through today...

i'm supposed to go for piano class every Thur at 4.30pm...

but today at round 3p.m, after i hav well-prepared to go for piano class, my piano ticer called and said that she's sick and so today's class is cancelled...

well, i'm kind of disappointed cause i hav done my part and hope to learn new stuff...

anyway, so coincidence my dad's home today, so we decided to watch a movie instead...

there'a a show i really want wo watch "Night at the Musuem 2"...

and if we go there before 6p.m, my sis and I could get student price...

so we went there to watch the 4.50p.m show...

everything's so cool that i even get to buy meatball...(I love meatball, C.S's cinema doesn't supply meatball..><)

anyway, the show's cool and everybody's laughing happily...

when Lary is talking Eistein, the cinema suddenly black out...

i tell you it's totally dark that not even a light is on in the room...

the best part is, my daddy, my sis and i din bring our hp along..

But, i'm glad i hav Bay-G watch which could provide me some dim light...(sounds like i'm doing advertisement for Baby-G)

we could do nothing but sitted there waitng for further instruction...

after round 15~20mins, somebody finally turns up..

they ask us to get a cop on our ticket and we could go back anytime in one week time to redeem our show..

i jz told myself, i would rather go to C.S next time since i'm paying the same price for the show...(there's only one prob wif CS's cinema~which is no meatball...><)

i'm now having trouble to think of a day to go back to the cinema and watch the show again...

sigh...a bit down la..wat the~~okok, no worry, everything ll be fine...

k then, this's my SUPER SPECIAL experience in a dark room...

hopefully i wont hav to go through it again anymore..

ll update soon, miss n love u lot..

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Love the World~~~~

2009-05-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

This is the HOTTEST topic nowadays...

everybody talks about environment friendly, love our mother earth, say no to plastic bags, white coffin and so on...

even kindergarten promotes this concept...

so our coming children camp is bout "LOVE THE WORLD"...

we're going to teach the kids how 2 take care our earth, from protecting ourself to protecting the endagered animals to protecting the environment...

it needs everyone's effort and co-operation...

through workshop and games, they are going to hav so much fun...

Yea, they'll be so happy running all over the school, exploring and learning through fun...

while we, the teachers hav some much preparation works....

Fr decorationg the classroom to organising games, preparing art craft, all take effort and time..

everyone's busy with different works....wow...cool ya...

let me promote a bit bit bout the coming camp...^^

it helds on 30~31 May 2009, in other words, this coming Sat n Sun...

venue: Unity Kindy House

Tomorrow ll be our last day for preparation, a bit scary, much more things to follow up...

Jia you Jia you... hopefully everything ll run smothly and hav a great camp....

ll update soon...miss n love u lot..

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I love Shopping~~~

2009-05-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

Yeah...Today's a GREAT day...

As usual, Sun's my BUSIEST day....

Early in the morning, got to pack myself to church...

then stay for youth fellowship...

Today's lunch is wat i wanted to eat since i'm back to JB...

guess wat's it? KFC~~~

I know Lai's expression ll be "GET A LIFE"....

Penang got no KFC ah?

Paiseh, i dunno y i jz feel like eating lot of things at home...

i'm so going to gain weight...oops...this's bad...><

well...after lunch is SHOPPING time...

i dun really shop cuz there's nothing much in Permas Jusco...

but i like their "ting ting"...I play drum wif my sis n Yi Zai...

guess wat?! I WIN all the time le..Thx to lai..cuz her name got double WIN...

so she pass her luck to me...Yeah~~Love u lot..haha...^^

Though i dun really shop there, i get to buy 4 books...

y 4? cuz buy 3 FREE 1...haha..^^

anyway, tats the 1st part of my shopping adventure...

At round 4, we went back home to rest n prepare for our 2nd round shopping journey...

basically i jz came back fr City Square...I cant even wait to take my bath, straight away sit in front of my comp typing my blog post..So "SEMANGAT" le...haha...^^

i bought lot of stuff n i'm so happy n satisfied...yeah...

oh, so wat did i buy ah...

hehe...

i bought stuff fr Skin Food...

i hav decided to take good care of my face...

cuz tat day when i went to facial, the staff said though i'm young, my face looks like OLD ppl face...

i'm so ANGRY la...where got old la? i look so pretty n young...

BUT...still their words affect me, so i buy some stuff to fix my face..."Action speaks LOUDER than words" wat...

then as usual, take a look at CUTE shop then i bought sth for MAY...haha...

Lai, dun jealous ah, cuz i noe u dun like stuff fr CUTE shop all the time...

then i'm so excited, cant wait to tell MAY...

BUT...she nvr picks up her phone..sad sad...

I hope she'll like the gift, even IF she dont, i'll still force her to use it..haha...

How could i be so evil ah?! No la, i'm a sweet ANGEL, I wont do such nonsense de la...

then i get to buy gift for my piano ticer...

FINALLY...cuz Teacher's day past long ago d..

but its d thought tat counts rite? its a very lovely gift..yeah...^^

ok, tats all for today...

I'll find another day to shop for clothes, shoes, pants n others...

today jz shop for nonsense nia..haha...^^

miss n love u lot...ll see Lai soon...

waiting for MAY to come JB n find me...

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My Treasure~Sweet Family~~

2009-05-22T07:33:00.000-07:00

I'm glad to hav a great family...

they really are my supporter n guidance...

at least they are beside me when i'm facing prob..

especially my mum, she gives me advise n help me in lot of ways...

daddy claims tat he helps me lot too...

he says a lot of things which is for my own good...

i understand perfectly well...

Zhen has been giving me a lot of pressure n stress in settling the prob..

so i scolded her n warn her not to do so again...

cuz she means a lot to me, n i wont hurt her in any way...

K then, i shall stop here, any quest jz ask me personally...

i dun wanna make things worse..

miss n love u lot...

ll be seeing Lai Lai tomorrow..

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What's the Prob wif my phone?!

2009-05-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

I jz dun understand y Lai Lai has prob wif all my phones?!

Not only wif both my phone, she also has prob wif my sis's phone...

Tats really funny n till now i still dun get it?

She's d ONLY one who complains my phones a lot...

y a?

I noe sometimes i'm very terible till i dunno where i put my phone, switch them off n so on...

but i dare say i ON my phone for Lai Lai...

n i put my phone near me d...

still she cant get through my phone...

she said i NVR on it n tats y she can get me...

she got witness somemore...

tats so UNFAIR...

i got witness too a...

I really ON my phone la, serious...

I shouldnt swear...

haha...I'll swear if i couold...too bad i cant...sigh...

lai, trust me, i really did on my phone...

i'll try check ut wats the real prob k?

n i'll make sure u can find me anytime, anywhere u wan k?

I'll try my BEST...^^

miss n love u lot, dear...

ll be seeing u soon....

muack...

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.

2009-05-17T17:52:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking very hard recently how 2 settle a problem I'm currently facing...

well, nobody can really helps n i'm strrugling finding a way to solve it...

its act not tat tough if i could a bit heartless n straight forward...

but i dun wanna to hurt someone's feeling...

pls dun force me to say sth i dun wish to...

it'll hurt u n make me feel guilty...

i think i hav done sth damn stupid AGAIN...

n now, having trouble to settle it...

if u're looking for me recently, then u'll find out its so difficult to find me...

i'm sorry bout it, cuz i nid 2 keep my phone away fr me so tat i can hav some peace...

Lai a, not tat i'm heartless la...

if i'm heartless enough, i would hav been able to settle this prob long enough...

sorry, hav 2 make it call to my house...

but i'm glad at the same time tat u could find me through my house phone...

at least i'm not so disconnected fr d outside world...ha..^^

my emotional has been quite unstable these few days...

but no worry, i'll handle it..

i'll not let my emotion takes over me...

life still need to go on...

so we got to be strong n face the truth...

i think i hav not make myself clear enough...

mayb wat Zhen said is right...

i got to be heartless so tat thing would not go worse...

k then, i shall settle it...

ll be updating soon...

miss n love u lot...

Lai a, sorry 4 disappearing long...i'll make sure we meet asap...

see ya then...^^

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I HATE Mr. Xiao Qiang!!!!

2009-05-15T04:36:00.000-07:00

Well, u might be wondering who this Mr. Xiao Qiang is...

let me explain it....

Mr. Xiao Qiang is actually a nick name for cockroach...

y i hate cockroach so much?

Bcuz, it is black, disgusting n the moment i see it i'll scream...

actually, if it stands far away from me, i'm ok wif it de...

But this incident happens last night when I'm taking bath alone....

I'm quite moody tat time n i'm thinking over sth...

then suddenly i feel sth fall on my feet...

i thought its jz my hair falling so i din take notice...

then suddenly i realised sth is not right...

so i kick my leg n i saw it...

can u imagine?

i dunno where it falls fr but it's on my feet moment before...

then i cant help myself but keep screaming...

my family members thought i was killed or sth, scream until like dunno wat the hell....

at last, i get scolded for screaming...sad sad...

so i hav decided to hate cockroach for the rest of my life...haha...^^

a lot things happen recently n sorry for my late update...

beside tat horrible incident, i hav changed my job recently...

well, i'm still working in the same place but diffrent job...

i'm working as a relief teacher in the 1st week...

n currently working as a office gal...

so got a lot of documents to handle...tired man...

but its fun at the same time...

i get to do different stuff n i wont get sore throat...^^

finally, i got May's msg today...

she has been disappear for days n finally she contact me...

can u imagine how happy i m?

wat else?

yea, i'm planning holiday trip now...

thinking of where to go...

at 1st, mummy wanna bring me oversea de...

but thinking bout H1N1, the plan is canceled....

we dun wanna to hav our 1st oversea trip n it ends up our last oversea trip...

so after long consideration, most probably ll be in M'sia or S'pore..^^

i'm really looking forward for the trip...

i really wanna enjoy n then get back to my tension, pack n busy U's life...

then i wont regret...yeah~~~~

oh ya, i'm gonna attend my fren's 21st b'day...

mummy keep asking me if i wanna celebrate n hav party...

i do consider having one...

but hav 2 wait for my sem timetable only i ll get to noe when'll be my holidaysn how 2 arrange the party n stuff...

everything's unknown...so i'll hav 2 plan...

but i'm glad 2 attend other's b'day party...

so i'll get an idea on how 2 work out a perfect b'day party....

so wait for my further news...i'll update my life asap...

miss n love u guys lot...

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Update~Update~~

2009-05-07T04:53:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, I'm back..Yeah...

2 days nvr blog d...hav been extremely busy recently...

lot of things i would like to share...

so lets start it one by one...

1st, I'm chaging fr Digi Postpaid to Digi Prepaid...

let me warn u, if u wan to do the exact same thing like me...

then u hav to be patient, seriously extremely patient, cuz its a very complicated matter...

1st, u hav to change fr Digi Postpaid to Maxis Postpaid...cool rite?

then, fr Maxis Postpaid change to Maxis Prepaid n then finally change to Digi Prepaid..

its damn complicated rite?

Y cant Digi jz help me to change fr Postpaid to prepaid in the 1st place?

ARGH~~~~~

So it spends me bout 1 week or so to settle this prob...

I'm settling it fr Penang to KL n then back to JB...then only i manage to settle everything...

I dun wanna repeat d same thing again...

Sth i would like to share here are Maxis is indeed having a very good quality service...

they act fast n they r very efficient...

So y i still choose Digi? The only reason I'm using Digi is bcuz its CHEAP...

extremely cheap compare to other network...

sigh..tats wat ppl said 一分钱，一分货...ask me wat it means if u dun understand..haha...
I'm sure Shymi ll be d 1st one who ask me so...^^

2nd, I went to S'pore yesterday...

this's d 1st time i'm going through using d new Kastam...wahahaha...

I would say its very beautiful...

BUT~BUT~BUT~~~~

i jz dun understand its structure...

y we hav to make a big round to S'pore when we act hav short cut?

Anyway, if anyway wanna go S'pore...

i think i can lead though i'm not very familiar wif it...

but we can be having lot of fun finding ways..

I think May ll surely love this idea..May a, S'pore's jz an island too...so we wont get lost de...

If we really get lost, we could alwiz swim back to M'sia de..haha...^^

3rd, swimming class today in school...

i think all kids love water...

as usual, they r extremely happy wif the swimming class...

act its not a formal swimming class, its jz kids having fun playing wif water in the pool...^^

Teacher jz guide beside...my kids are old enough to take good care of themselves...

so i'm jz make sure they r safe outside the pool...^^

its really fun seeing their happy smiling face...

but they did nonsense on me too...

they splash water on me when I din notice them...so i ended up wet..sob sob...

i nvr expect me to be wet la...

its act full of fun...^^

My dear Felicia take a bus today to Melaka...

so u would be back to Sarawak on the 12th of May n tats end her holidays trip...

I wont blog bout her anymore till i met her next time...

Mayb i'll met her in Miri, we're still planning the trip...Yeah...

she keeps on assure me Sarawak's not ulu, especially where she stays...^^

k then, I think i shall stop here...

ll keep upate de...

miss n love u lot...

p/s: Opps, I left out sth...I jz got my CHRISTMAS present fr Lai Lai...So sweet of her....I love the gift so much, my dear..she wont be seeing this line soon cuz she says she wanna keep away fr internet temporary...Anyway, love u to the max, my dear...^^

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2nd Day at work~~

2009-05-04T23:49:00.000-07:00

I shouldnt put this title de~~

cuz if i continue to blog...then d title ll go on n on..

I'll most probably working for around 2 months...

so there ll be 3rd day at work, 4th day at work n so on....

i'll try my best to think of sth creative to be my post's title...^^

giv me some suggestions if u hav...

my fren's sister, Felicia is currently staying in my house..

she's a very cute, passion n blur gal...

she's extremely funny n bring lot of laughter for us...

she actually ask me not to blog bout her de...

but i think i should blog her since she's doing my work, tats y i'm free to blog..

so jz treat this as a token of appreciation...

wahahahahhahaha...so happy...

she actually wanna on MSN n chat wif her frens de...

too bad, i'm elder than her, so i'll play 1st...

woo hoo~~but dun worry, i wont tortue my fren de la...

i'll let her play later once i complete my blog...^^

then my mum ll complain again cuz she didnt get to do her work...

sorry mummy cuz i cant blog at home...

oh ya, forget to talk bout today's work...

hmm....nothing much to say...

kids are alwiz the combination of angel n the opposite of angel...

wat the tut m i saying? Paiseh...I shouldnt n couldnt say tat they r demon rite?

so u fill in the blank urself...^^

k then, shall stop here....

miss n love u lot...

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K1 Lovely Exp~~~

2009-05-03T23:08:00.000-07:00

Hi all, I'm currently working as a relief teacher...^^

helping my mum in teaching K1 kids...

they are around 4-5 years old....

most of them are energetic...

they are cute, lovely n passion...

but they are quite confused wif my identity....

some of them call me da jie jie (which means big sister cuz i'm Mdm Khoo eldest daughter..^^), some of them would call me Grace jie jie n some of them who i hav taught before would call me T. Grace....^^

no matter wat they call me, i'll answer them by calling bao bei or dear....

they are indeed very cute~~

But...But...But....

they are very naughty n talkative at d same time...

u can hardly stop them fr talking unless u shout at them....

i hate shouting, cuz it makes me as though I'm a tigress...

I dun wan...I'm still single n available...I dun wan to scare my gentleman callers off....

Anyway, I love my job a lot...I love my children no matter how naughty they may be....

I'll update my life soon...see ya...

miss n love u lot....

Lai Lai, we r so going to meet each other soon....the 1st thing u nid 2 do when u see me is give me a BIG hug...^^

p/s: mummy's grumbling cuz i seize her laptop...wahahahaha...^^ Better give her back b4 she beats my butt..

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1st Day at Home~~~

2009-05-01T05:41:00.000-07:00

Woo Hoo~~

I'm at home d....

my house's really full of food....

My mummy might think tat i've been starving for months, tats y she prepares so much food...

but it's her way to show tat she cares n loves me lot...

early in the morning, somebody has prepared breakfast for me....

then lun ch n dinner, everything's so well prepared tat i nid not to worry bout anything....

its really cool staying at home....

well, i have done nothing today the whole day....

jz watching animation, updating my MSN n ya epgrading my restaurant city...

its so much fun but act quite bored also......

i really wanna go out for a walk de...

but too bad mummy's sick n zhen zhen's busying going tuition....

left me being not so healthy but still able to keep awake doing nothing....

but no worry, i still hav days to go n i'll be extremely busy...

so if u wan 2 date me, make sure u make appointment wif me in advance...

tomorrow ll hav 2 bring my fren home, take care of her....

then send her to her aunty's house....

mon~wed, my fren's sister ll be coming over to JB fr Sarawak...

so again i hav 2 bring her here n there...

life's so busy but i'll make sure everything goes well de...

k then, shall stop here...

miss n love u lot...^^

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Feeling of Tired~~

2009-04-30T05:36:00.001-07:00

I'm feeling extremely tired now...

but not really physically but mentally...

really feel like giving up...

I noe my frens ll be wondering...

I've done my final test n staying in my sweet home...

tat's nothing much i've to worry...

I really dunno wat 2 say n how 2 say...

actually i dun wanna make it a big deal...

i really wan 2 keep to myself but i think i cant...

its really a big burden n i really hope to get rid of it...

everytime when u tell me tat u're facing problems n u're drinking again...

i actually feeling very tired....

i dunno wat i can do to help u n i dunno how long can i take it....

i mean i've been working hard to work on it...

i alwiz wanted someone stronger to be beside me, to guide me, to cheer me, to support me...

i keep on telling myself, it's possible to make it de, if we really try n everyone plays their part...

i'm not blaming u for sharing ur problems wif me...I'm willing to listen to it...

but....Its jz not this way...

I really tired....i dun even noe how 2 face u...it jz doesnt work...

sigh....u alwiz ask me y i alwiz like 2 sigh....

not tat i like 2 sigh...but u're making me very worry...

i might not be any better than u but at least i wont giv up easily....

u'll nvr noe until u try...even if u failed, u still could be proud of urself cuz u've done ur best...

when i was in primary school, i like to join all kind of competition like singing competition, story-telling competition n so on....

i joined every year n i failed every year....

still i nvr give up cuz i'm happy wif wat i'm doing...

i'm not trying to prove anything, but i'm jz being who i m...

frankly speaking, i do wish n hope 2 get position....

but even i dun get any, i wont giv up any chance of joining...

tats my strong point, nvr giv up...

so wats urs? Pls tell me wats urs?!!!

I really wish to noe....really.....there's nothing to support me....

i'm supposed to tell u frankly n face to face....but i dun hav 2 courage....

i thought u should be able to think better than me...

after writing the whole post, i still couldnt get rid of my feeling of tired....

mayb i should jz go off now....

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Update my life~~

2009-04-23T05:12:00.000-07:00

May and I have been taking pictures while we are waiting for WonLin. So when finally she came, we took pictures with her as a proof lo. She's so slow la...Sigh..Hopefully she wont see this line, or else she ll kill me..Please, dun tell her....

Can hardly see our eyes also...Smile until mouth so big...It's actually to show that we're very very extremely happy...^^

I'm calling WonLin to ask her to come down faster...But it takes so long to get her on phone. So May got nothing to do, then she took my pretty face lo. I look so cool rite? So professional in answering phone.. Ha..^^

This picture's still quite normal, though smiling, still can see our beautiful eyes.Yeah~~^^

We're trying to smile gently we did smile till so gentle n cute..We look so sweet rite? Love myself more n more when i'm admiring my pictures...^^

Sorry...Forget to update my life...

wahaha...jz post a blog about my sis...

then i jz realised i haven really updated my life...

so basically, I'm having my final exam now...

but it's going 2 end soon..

I'm waiting to finish my last paper then I'll be going home..^^

life has been busy n tough? busy is true la but tough ma...

i dun think my life is tat tough...

I know how 2 handle my life....

then wat else happening?

oh, my laptop spoil d...

so sad...cant on at all...

so hav 2 bring home n fix it...

based on wat my fren said, my laptop ll nid 2 reformat...

sigh...everything inside my laptop ll gone...

then...

cannot update d...

fren asking me to go off d...

wait ah...ll update very soon de..

take care...miss n love u lot...^^

p/s: At 1st, I really wanna update my life only. But thinking my dear May, i think i should post bout her since she cares so much for me. I'll find one fine day n blog bout her de, k? If anyone wanna date her, can ask me? I'll help her to arrange..^^

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My dearest sister, Zhen~~

2009-04-23T03:21:00.000-07:00

Dear Zhen..this's the 1st time i use ur name to blog oh...

Thx a lot for caring me so much..

actually, everything's ok wif me d..

u got to trust ur sis ma..

I'm so smart, surely i noe how 2 handle n settle stuff rite?

I'm glad to hav u as my sis..

really, u're so nice to me...

proud to hav u as my sis..yeah...^^

anyway, i'm supposed to busy with my last paper recently...

BUT....

i'm NOT...haha....

instead, i'm having lot of fun...

but dun worry, i wont forget my duty as a student de...^^

another thing is i wont be going home soon....

so i hav bought the ticket to go KL on Mon...

ll shop a while there n might be going to Genting if we hav d chance...

no worry, though i'm not coming back early, i promise i'll buy u present de k?

let me see ya...wat should i buy le?!

hmm...Kuma-Kuma? Kuku-Malu?

i noe la, u wan turtle la...

i miss home so much....

nvr see u for months d n i'm supposed to call home...

ok, i'll call u tonight...

then i should update my life...Yeah~~

Act i really wanna to go fo movie wif my frens de...

but i promised to watch a lot of movies wif u when i'm back rite?

So i din watch lo....

so prepare ur pocket money, make sure u hav enough money ya..

then i'll fetch u to cinema n treat u n u'll PAY for it...yeah~~

good plan rite?I hav been planning for days d...

wahahaha...

ok la, i noe i'm talking nonsense...

u nvr really miss me also..

keep on thinking about maple only...

nvm, when i'm back, we'll get cash card n we ll buy 2x exp card n we'll train together...yeah....

i'm so smart...No wonder u admire me so much...

ok, i should stop praising myself (though it's all truth)...^^

k la, Zhen, I ll be back soon n hav fun....

make sure u wont angry wif me n chase me out of room half way ya...

i'm coming back for 2 months only, so be prepared to bear wif me...^^

see ya then..

miss n love u lot...

we shall think bout Mummy's present when i'm back k?

Take care...

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Frustrated and Disappointed~~~~

2009-04-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys, I dun wanna tell my problems in public....

I want to keep it as low profile as i can...

but i need a way out...

so this's jz basically a post bout my feeling n wat i think of the incident...

dun hav to ask me wat happen as it is jz a small case n i'll handle it...

I jz watched a show today named "He is just NOT that into you"..

for me, its quite real n this's really reality...

guys alwiz dunno how 2 speak frankly...

they hope to gain sth without paying or putting effort...

girls are different..we really try our best to do it, especially in a relationship..

In the show, there's a guy alwiz mixing around with girls...

He alwiz keep in distance fr the girls...he gains their thrust, love n care without putting effort...

he scare of getting hurt...he think only of himself...

if u really wan 2 protect urself fr getting hurt, then dun step into a relationship....

if u dun even hav confidence in urself, dunno how 2 love urself, then pls learn to do so before u even think of starting of a relationship...

really, love is not a game..

love eventually leads to marriage....

so think properly before u say sth...

or if u think d other misunderstand u, then make urself clear...

dun run away n not solving the problem...

u're making things worse n the same thing ll happen over n over again...

I'm not scolding anyone or blaming anyone...

this's jz basically how i feel n think...

So guys, please make sure u know what u're saying n dun hurt urself n the gal at the same time..

it hurts, it really hurts...dun think only u urself ll only get hurt...

I know someone'll come n ask me wat happen n stuff...

no worry, everything ll be ok....

ll still love u all lot de...

dun worry..

take good care of urself...

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No Pictures Updates!!!

2009-04-13T12:40:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating for long...

i alwiz wanted to update my blog..

too bad my new house internet connection is very bad...

I cant really log in to my own blog...

sad sad...

there's a lot of update in my life...

cant really show u all those pictures...

anyway...

life has been busy as usual...

HIV/AIDS conference on 4th of April is very successful...

about 100 ++ people attended the conference...

Food and Beverage is more than enough that i could even save my dinner...^^

Study week has passed...(5th ~ 12th of Apr)

Mood has been very down for no reason...

get hardly pay full attention on wat i'm doing n wat i nid to do...

Tonight is cool...having lot of fun wif May, Michael and Sharon...

full of laughter...

but when i'm alone in room typing my blog...

i feel very lonely and down...

act when i'm wif them, i try to get rid of my down emotion...

i dunno wat i m worry bout...

i jz feel unhappy...

i wan somebody 2 talk 2 n at the same time i wish 2 remain silent...

it sounds complicated but this is wat i m going through...

not knowing wat 2 do...

i'm tired act, very very tired...

but i couldnt get to sleep...

my fren teach me how 2 relax..

but i noe its useless....

cuz i nid 2 clear my burden in my heart b4 i could sleep...

n i couldnt tell wat my burden is...

can somebody help me? lend me a helping hand? please...

I'm really lost and i couldnt get back my way...

calling home doesnt really help...

act calling anybody wont help me anyway...

cuz i cant tell my prob...

sigh...

i should go 2 sleep now, i noe...

but i m restless....

forget it...

I ll jz lay on my bed n try 2 sleep...

Nite all...

all the best for those who are having exam n ll be having exam...

Take care...

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Pictures + Updates = New Life!! ^^

2009-03-27T07:01:00.000-07:00

These are all my coursemates. 6 pretty gals rite? Wahaha...Do I have to introduce them? Well, starting from the back row, from left to rite are Kah Voon, Big Wife (Big wife has her very own name de, Chieng Joh) , me n Yi Feng. The white shirt girl is Won Lin and beside her the blur shirt gal is Mei Geei - Maggie. We are all very close to each other. We took this before we went to LSP 300 class. Yeah!!!

Ok, this's the picture we took before the AGM meeting of Humanities school started. We actually looking forward to attend the meeting de. Somehow the system is so unfair and we are truly disappointed with it. Sigh.

Can see from our smiling face rite? Everything change after the meeting. But jz forget it, we hav nothing to do wif it anyway. Who cares?! Blek!!
My new room in my new house. All these boxes are books, bags n stuffs...

These are my beautiful cupboard and books shelf. Yeah!!!!

My bed with my laptop on, cuz wanna update my blog ma..^^

These are all my precious. Got Pinky, Bubbles, Ah Bone and cai zai. ^^ I noe la, a lot of ppl sure say WAH...But i can't survive without them ah....^^

Basically, u hav see all d pictures wif descriptions. This is what has been happening in my life these few weeks.

I got a test and a assignment to do...Everything ll be ok after tat...

All i nid to do after tat is jz focus for my final exam.

Oh ya, shy to share le..

Nvm la, ll keep it to myself 1st...

Ask me if u really wan 2 know...^^

Take care and hav a nice day!!

Miss n love u lots..

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Update! Update!! Update!!!

2009-03-20T22:45:00.000-07:00

Me testing clothes in the testing room in Gurney. I'm trying to get white collor long sleeve shirt. So have been trying so many clothes in Gurney. This is the one which i love the most. But i didnt manage to buy it cuz its not consider collar. Somemore there is a big ribbon in front. Act the ribbon is the reason y i love this shirt. But in order to keep in low profile, i choose d other one lo. >.<
Yeah! Yeah!! Watching movie for RM 5 in school. We are from different etnic yet we could get along well. This is the theme they are trying to bring out. Act this is part of my project for SHE la. cool rite? I act put it in my project o. My prof sure like it a lot one.

I know u guys sure dunno wat movie i'm watching de. So this's the ad i would like to add in. TALENTIME, a very nice movie. Its coming soon oh~~ 26 of March. Please go n watch it if u're free. Its worth watching i would say. ^^

Oh, this pic is taken in Queensbay when I m with my dad enjoying tea-time. Yeah!! I love the pancakes. Somemore got ice-cream on top le. Lai ah, when u get 2 come to Penang, I'll bring u there. Its a house full of dessert oh.. U sure ll love it to the max de..trust me.... ^^

Sorry for not updating almost one week...

jz been through a busy week....

starting from Mon to Fri...

tired tired....

so what i hav been doing a?

hehe...

Tues - group discussion, Wed - HXE 109's test, Thur - presentation for LKM 400, Fri - Test for HET 123.

Its cool rite?

But no worry...

everything passed d...

I'm not working hard on my another assignment - Edgar Allan Poe..^^

It reveals the darkest side in ur heart...

woo~~woo~~woo~~

wait...

have to insert pic, for my dearest Lai Lai..^^

Dear ah, Iact wanna put all d pic here de..

But cant oh..

So u hav 2 see d pictures d only can read my blog.

All those pic upthere are recently one.

So that's how i look now...

Miss n love u lots.

Take care ya..

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Pictures! Pictures!! Pictures!!!

2009-03-13T10:05:00.001-07:00

My roommate, Hua Ying. We went there together de.. Thats y we r eating the same thing. Very exp k? We are poor uni students, so we share lo. ^^

Very funny expression, I know. I haven get ready then my fren help me take d. Its name's shasha. I really ride on it. My 1st time riding horse experience oh!! Cool, right?

Yeah! We dint eat there actually. Just sitting there waiting for time to pass. So when gals got nothing better to do, they ll take pictures!!

Again, I m waiting for my fren to turn up. We hav to discuss assignment. But too bad, she or he (I cant remember who m i waiting for) is so slow. I take a few pictures lo since I m so pretty. ^^

Me n my big wife. She's d other one who has rank in my heart. Jz kidding la, she's a very hard-working gal. Alwiz do preperation and concentrate in class de. Bu too bad, she's taking pic with me when prof's talking in front. But no worry, class's big, so nobody ll notice us. ^^

Me n May..^^ May's my very good fren in USM. She's a very nice gal. She is kind, friendly and soft-hearted. So i love her a lot. ^^

This is my last sem Thursday's MCD gathering group. From left to right, May, me n Jason. Jason's a very nice guy (sometimes, most of time he is NOT. wahahaha)

Yeah!! My T-bowl experience. Very delicious dessert. I love dessert! Tats d reason y I m ...... wahahaha!!

I'm not going to write anything today! Jz post up some pictures for my dear Lai Lai to see...^^

All this pictures taken last year. Sorry ya, this sem too busy la..

No time to go here n there n take pic la..

Act got la..but all wif my frens..

I'll try 2 post more picture de k?

Take care and have a nice day!

Miss and love u lots..

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Poor May!!! Poor Me!!!

2009-03-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

I finally get to sleep at 8 in the morning after the whole night doing SHE's assignment.

So the whole morning I was sleeping at home, and I sleep so soundly tat i could heard nothing..

Its really a nice rest...

Anyway, after i wake up..

My leg's pain, can hardly walk...

But i cant remember what happen..

I dun think i do sth on my leg...

Anyway, May didnt get to sleep at all...

she hav meeting at 7..

then suddenly got a lot of works to do...

poor May la..

when i was sleeping, she's busy doing work..

I feel so bad...

We managed to pay our school fees today before they close...^^

this's sth we're so proud of ourself...

after tat have "Breakfast + lunch + dinner" at Subaidah...

then i hav PM's ICX meeting...

Get my job, ll hav to look for sponsor 2 sponsor our HIV conference on 4th of April...

It's bout Food and Beverage's sponsor...

So ll try to ask sponsor fr Subaidah, McD, KFC n .....

Its all bout FOOD la...

though i like food a lot, this'll be the first time i look for someone to sponsor on my food...^^

wahaha...Hopefully we can get what we need...

K then, ll stop here...

I ll update asap de...

see ya..

take care and hav a nice day..

Miss n love u lots..

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Tired! Happy!! Satisfied!!!

2009-03-10T15:34:00.000-07:00

Good morning, everyone...^^

dun think i wake up so early in the morning ah..

actually i haven sleep d whole night..

was trying to complete my SHE's assignment...

Paiseh ah...my brain's not functioning well now....

so i nid 2 try very hard 2 recall wat happen last night...

Oh...ya....

yesterday, 10th of March is the craziest day i had in Uni (so far)

At around evening, my dear fren Won Lin knocked a car which quietly park aside...

dun ask me y n how...

cuz i m reading a book tat time n i jz heard two bang...

But won lin claimed tat she heard nothing la..

i think she's in a shock lo...

oh...forget to tell the worst part...

the car she drove is belongs to May..

so once she knocked the car...

i quickly take over the car n drove away...

y? complicated...but we r not tat irresponsible la...

we leave a note there asking the owner of the car to contact us...

so far we haven received any call fr the owner...

anyway, no worry, its jz a kancil...^^

though accident happen, it doesnt stop us fr going to eat in KFC....

i think i m quite in shock that i ordered dinner plate which i couldnt finish...

ya, forget to tell...after the accident, i go n fetch May n Z...

so 4 of us went to KFC to hav dinner...

during dinner, May's actually very quiet..

so we think mayb she's very blur also...

of cuz la, car accident wor...

but no worry la, we ll compensate her...

after dinner, we go library to study...

I m supposed to do my assignment wif May...

but we r a bit too high tat we spend 2 hours in the library doing nothing...

after the library closed, we sent won lin back to her hostel...

we could see tat won lin's actually quite mooody also la...

but she doesnt want us to worry, so she "pretend" to be strong...

anyway, mission not complete, May n I couldnt go back to sleep...

we dont wan 2 do work in my house cuz its small, smelly n noisy...

ok, i shouldnt describe my house in such a horrible way..

but due to some reasons....my house is not suitable to study at all...

so we went to SunShine's Mcd...

we really do work there...

but half way...

i find sth very URGENT...

i nid to pee...ah......

so May ask me to drive the car n find a petrol station's toilet...

but the thing's i m not familiar wif the place, so i dun dare to drive far...

i end up turning one round and went back to Mcd...

Out of no choice...we ask the Mcd's manager for help...

to take care of our laptop when we r out...

so May started her driving adventure...

its around 1.30a.m tat time...

so basically, there's only a few cars on the road...

So fisrt, May drives me to hospital, but there are a lot of guards standing there guarding..

so we quickly go away...

then she brought me to a petrol station which has no toilet....

then we went to a petrol station where the toilet's close...

dun ask me y we r so suai cannot get toilet...

i couldnt answer tat...

FINALLY...Its really finally...

we decided to go to a mamak to get toilet...

but the toilet is like a haunted toilet...

i heard water sounds in the toilet...(i mean like ppl peeing)

the door is half closed...

I was so scare, i ask May to come n check the toilet out...

May said she heard ppl talking inside wor..

its like getting worse...

at last, i knocked at the door, asking if someone's there...

nobody answer, so i slowly push the door open...

it ends up nobody inside the toilet...

i dun dare to go in the toilet myself...

so...ermm...haiyo..

i ask may to go in wif me...(slap urself if u think of sth yellow)

we dint see each other when peeing la, we jz try 2 keep each other company...haiyo...

k, going back to Mcd...

actually, there are a lot of things happening la...

there are a lot of laughter, and actually at the end both of us are very blur n confused d...

but we managed to finish lot of stuff and left a bit more to complete...

Oh ya..Actually, this's a group assignment...which May's not in...

she took her SHE last sem...

but she's being such a sweet, kind and soft-hearted fren...

she's jz trying to help me....

Thx a lot May...I ll try to giv credit to u in my assignment de..^^

well...we left Mcd around 6 in the morning...

get home, packed, bathe and i think i should blog b4 i sleep...

anyway, its a fun nite i would say...

I m tired cuz i din sleep d whole nite...

I m happy bcuz there are a lot of fun and laughter the whole night..

I m satisfied cuz i hav done most of my assignment...

so everything's cool for me n i really nid 2 sleep b4 i start talking nonsense...

but basically this post is nonsense..

k then, take care n hav a nice day..

Miss n love u lots..

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Confess!!!!

2009-03-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

May, I hope u wont be angry wif this post....

I guess nobody which ll scold me ll see this post..

so no worry ya...

I jz post for fun...^^

Yesterday, my dear fren, May, is really sick....

we sent her to USM's Pusat Kesihatan n only we know she got food-poisoning...

but act b4 we sent her there, we already guess the reason d...

so, after we bought her the porridge, we sent her back her room to rest...

n so bcuz May's sick, i hav 2 be d driver to send my dear Won Lin n her debate frens to Sg. Nibong bus station...

then only i get to rest in my room...

sleep....sleep...sleep....

jz wake up n wan 2 wash my clothes, Jason asks me to fetch him n his fren 2 Bakti...

since I nid 2 visit May n buy her food, so i "shun bian" send them to school...

May's really sick n u can see fr her face...

so i thought of buying food n ask her 2 stay in her room de...

But she insisted to follow me to eat...

We go for dinner n come out wif an EVIL and CRAZY idea...

which is go to Queensbay Mall to watch movie...

I noe May's very sick yet i couldnt reject her plead...

So we went there, buy the ticket "Marley n Me" at 9.30p.m and it still has one n a half hour to go...

So we went to ply "ting ting"...

U can imagine how crazy we are....

one sick people n one healthy people, both wearing shorts, playing ting ting in Queensbay....

wow....Then we manage to get ourselves inside the cinema 5 mins b4 d show...

cuz when we r playing, we kind of forget d time...

Anyway, the movie's really sweet....

it reminds me a lot of my dog, Blessing...

I miss my dog so much....

I cried wif the family when the dog dies....

sigh...But its really a nice movie...

K la...ll stop here...

take care n hav a nice day.....

ll update asap...

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=0045=

Update!Update!Update!!!!

2009-03-05T05:07:00.000-08:00

I noe u guys mz be wondering y cant i jz update everyday....

Haiyo...u think i m really tat free to update my life everyday meh?

I got lot of stuff to do de k?

Anyway, I jz realised its March and i think i should at least post up 1 post...

but no worry la...its impossible for me to just post up 1 nia de...

i got so much things to share...

anyway...

In bout 1 month time my sem ll ends n i ll nid to take exam...

its quite stressful cuz d sem is short but i got lot of stuff to do n pick up...

no worry....I still can handle...

I m not tat worried and panic like last sem d...

i noe i can handle them well de...

even if i couldnt, i will still make sure everything goes well...

ya, i went to Aiesec' PM department meeting today...

its really cool...I get to noe my team members n noe my JD...yeah....
(p/s: JD = Job Description)

its pretty fun and i m looking forward to work on it....

Basically my job is jz like baby-sitter which suits my personality...

i nid 2 take care of the intense who's coming to Malaysia...(b4 they come and when they're in M'sia)

I ll make sure they get what they want, make sure they can adapt themselves well in M'sia like the place they stay, the food they eat n etc...

I hope I can handle them well and of cuz not forgetting my ICX training...

I really think its good cuz i can learn the theory and at d same time apply it practically...^^

Well...Guess I hav nothing much to say...

ll keep u guys update de...

Take care...

Miss n love u lots....

=En En=
=2115=

Tired Me!!!!

2009-02-23T09:34:00.000-08:00

Wow...Today's really a wow..

So many things happen today..

n i jz feel like sharing some...

Some are really cool, some really make me feel like dying, and some really make me so sick...

Actually, I m not suppose to blog now as i still hav a lot of works to do...

But somehow i think i should blog a bit lo...

I dun wan my blog 2 become a dead blog/ outdated blog cuz i hav no more excuse for tat d...

Anyway...

Start with the morning...

Morning is cool...

I went to class and the ticer talked n talked and talked...

its all nonsense i guess....

cuz i din get anything...

then bought a movie ticket fr my fren as it is part of my project...

then after class i met my Aiesec's boss...

she's a cool gal...n she tells me wat'll be my job n wat i nid 2 do n stuff like tat...

its really nice of us cuz she really assign task according to my needs...

so I'm happy wif my task n waiting forward to carry it out...

then i went out for lunch wif May...

eat then buy some neccesity..(chocolate)

I really nid chocolate today 2 calm me down...

was suppose to study in the library..

but i really cannot stand the pain..

so finally poor May come n fetch me home..

Thx May, alwiz make u my driver though i promise not to...sorry...

then lay on bed, pain, try 2 sleep, then wake up...

then tonite got last choir practise b4 we go on stage...

its really cool n i could see everyone' determination in serving God...

I can see everybody is tired but they put in effort in doing God's work...

I'm really touched and proud to be one of them...

Then Mdm Ng was suppose to fetch me to her house get a blouse i would say and send me home..

but on the way home it suddenly rains heavily...

so she said mayb we should do tat next time as it's late d..

so she sent me home but on the way she sent me home...

May called me to go out 4 supper...

so though i noe i got a lot of stuff to complete...

still i go...

its a great night...mixing wif Yi Feng n May...

We talked, laughed, eat...

then finally get home..

tats y i'm still here...

cuz i hav a lot of works to complete b4 i could sleep....

wat to do? I hav choosen wat i wan and it makes everything different...

So the moral of the story is "Think properly before u decide anything"

k then, i hav 2 stop here...

Its a MUST...

ll continue to update de...

miss n love u lots..

Take care...

=En En=
=0150=

Update! Update! Update!!!

2009-02-21T02:40:00.000-08:00

Hi all, here I m again...

I noe i noe...

i was suppose 2 update everyday..

but pls spare me some time...

well...

there are a few things i would like to share...

1st, i jz done my economic's test...

i dunno how well i hav done it...

but i'm jz glad tat its over d..yeah!!

2nd, I hav a lot of books, short stories and poems to read and a lot of assignmentssss to rush!!

it really make my head big and i hope i could complete them....

3rd, I went to Gurney Plaza wif May last Thur (19/2/09)

we took a bus to go there and we took a bus to come back...

Cool rite? Its really nice but tiring at d same time too...

so we waited bus at d bus stop at 4p.m...

wait ah wait ah wait ah wait...

wait till our neck grow long then finally at round 5 a bus came...

phew...its a long wait...

then sit in the bus, turn here, turn there, turn a round, turn till i wan 2 vomit n faint d....

then we reached GURNEY....yeah...

so we decided 2 eat something 1st....

i told May, pastamania has student price o...

so we happily rush there...

BUT......

"oh, student promotion's only fr 3 to 6"

we reached pastamania at round 6.05...

but anyway, no government tax n service charge wor...

so we decided to eat there...

well...its really a nice meal..both May n i enjoyed it very much...

Dun think we r so free to take a bus all the way to Gurney to shooping la...

we got IMPORTANT stuff to do...which is to buy books...

so we went to both MPH and POPULAR to seacrh for the books we want...

actually not we la, its ME only...May's jz being friendly, kind and soft-hearted to accompany me..(Grace: "May, does this sounds familiar to you? ^^" )

ok..So i really got what i need (i guess) and so i spend a lot of money on them...(ah, POOR me)

after we complete MY MISSION, time's still early(round 8 sth or 9)...

bus will be coming at 10.30...

so we take a walk...

we found a very cute shop which u can buy keychain there and they ll carve watever u wan for free...

its not tat exp anyway, n i think its a special gift...

so May n I make one for Han Jing as her b'day gift...

then when we r looking at them...

we saw two puzzle as a pair...

n somehow we hav a feeling to make one 4 both of us as BEST fren..

cool rite? N we made it...yeah...

its really nice...remind me to show it to u all ya....^^

at round 9 sth...we go 4 supper at Gurney Drive...

then at 10 sth we went to the bus stop n waited for bus there....

somehow, we feel sth is not right as there's not even one bus passing by...

so we r kind of worried...

then we go n ask around where to get d bus and jz realised its the other way...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....we screamed and run for it cuz its almost 10.30 d....

wrong place again....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....run again........aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....bus ah........

run again.......take picture......aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......bus......finally we got up a bus........

if u think this's d end of the story, then sorry we r wrong...

we din manage to live happily ever after...

so we waited bus at Komtar...waited for the last bus...

thx God we got d bus at 11.45....

by the time we reached USM sungai dua gate, it already passed midnight...

so Cinderella (May) couldnt go back to her hostel cuz the gate's locked....

luckily, May still hav me ma...

so she went back to my house and stay with me lo...

tats d end of our adventure...

we hav a few conclusion from this "case"

1st, its nice to walk at night.

2nd, its better to hav a car cuz waiting for bus wasted lot of time

3rd,we can try to explore penang more by walking (especially night town ^^)

I think tats all as i cant remember anything else...

so ll try update my blog soon de...

take care..

miss n love u lots...

=En En=
=1915=

My Sweet Day!

2009-02-16T07:42:00.000-08:00

So y today's sweet?

Cuz May said i'm prettier today...

Cuz Han Jing said I'm thinner....

Cuz I think I hav a really good relationship wif God (I know i jz started)

So there's a lot of reason for me to hav a sweet day today...

I can see God's work...

I jz wonder y i never feel so before..

I do pray 2 God...

But its somehow different...

n i noe d reason...

Its bcuz i really open my heart to God...

I used to maintain my old relationship wif God...

I jz din really giv a chance to God to talk 2 me, to help me, to protect me...

I noe a lot of thing n at d same time i dunnno anything..

But through bible...

I really feel God's existence...

I dun mind telling u tat lot of time I'm still proud being myself...

I think i can make it...

I believe that God helps me but bcuz of praises, i tend to think...

mayb its my ability n talent too....

I'm glad i learnt...

God really has his own time n will...

At home i rely a lot on my parents...

n its true tat they really protect me well...

but when i m outside alone...

when there's no one beside me...

yea, there might be frens...

but God's d only one tat noes my true feeling...

there's a lot of time u hav a lot of things n feelings that u could hardly express n tell...

But God knows...

He ll comfort u, be wif u, open a way for u...

So its really great in learning...

Of cuz there's still a lot of things in front of me...

I might be depress n stress...

but deep in my heart...

i know...

God'll make a way when there seems to be no way...

Gambate...

God loves u...

Take care n have a nice day...

=En En=
=1155=

Update!Update!Update!!!!!

2009-02-14T08:02:00.000-08:00

Hi all....(especially Lai Lai)

I'm now trying 2 update my blog as often as possible.

If possible I ll update everyday k?

I can do so cuz I hav internet connection at my home d..

Yeah!!!!I noe everyone ll surely be happy for me de, rite?

So i ll try to blog more n stay online more....

I hav been hiding myself inside my "turtle shell"

Dunno who to talk to n sometimes dun feel like talking also...

But its different now...

I ll talk more...

I ll seek advise fr more ppl...

Its better...when i'm alone, i tend 2 listen to only one n two ppl...

n sometimes they hav very different perception fr me..

so bcuz i dun talk 2 other ppl...

so i accept wat they said...

This lead me to very tragic ending...

so i couldnt bear 2 make mistake anymore...

I wan 2 be different...

i wan 2 talk 2 ppl tat i trusted n not making them worry bout...

so today's lesson is dun make decision rushly..

ok...i'm sorry tat i hav been talking nonsense for almost half page..

so let me turn into my main topic today....

today's d real real de Valentine Day!!!

Early in the morning i was awaken by "heat"

oh my goodness, dunno wat reason my house dun hav electricity..

so was force 2 wake up early...n it really make me headache as i slept late last nite...

so d whole day half studing, half talkling n half doing nothing...

at nite, i decided 2 go out wif my church members as it is better than 2 stay at home alone....

so hav a great dinner i guess n we went to Queensbay Mall...

at 1st, we r suppose 2 stay there a while to visit someone...

somehow, there's a photography section for ppl 2 take pic (couple especially)

so as u could imagine la...

they started to make up(for girls) and I m so bored standing there doing nothing...

Deep in my heart, i m telling myself...

Ok, it ll soon be my turn...

wahahahaha..

Ok, i m jz talking nonsense...

so jz ignore me k?

well...

this's my Valentine Day, very pity rite?

but its ok....I just hope my frens ll be happy...^^

so make sure all of u r happy ya..

miss n love u lots...

take care n see ya..

=En En=
=0015=

Happy Valentine Day!!!

2009-02-13T09:14:00.000-08:00

Well, first of all, jz wan 2 say Happy Valentine Day for all....

So I hope those who have partner will be happy and be in love...

as for those who dun hav a partner like me...

ll find ur Ms/Mr Right soon...

there's nothing to be sad of..

u jz dun get flowers, chocolates n presents nia...

nothing big deal de...

well, I m jz kidding ah...

dun angry...haha...

Today's a great day...

I guess...cuz even though i dun hav a bf...

I hav a lot of people who love and care for me...

They show their love n care n reassure me that...

I m NOT alone...

I m someone who's scare of being alone...

Not tat i scare of ghost or sth...

Its jz tat i nid companion...

I need someone 2 talk 2, to share my sorrow n joy...

Tats all, I expect nothing much fr my partner...^^

No worry..

I'll wait patiently de....

I believe God ll prepare d BEST for me de...

well...

I'll stop here...

Oh ya, act today's still not valentine day...

its 13th of Feb...

n cuz i stayed up late, so time flies and it's now 1 sth....

I would like 2 thx Lai Lai n May...

Lai Lai helps me to solve my econ pro....

I noe she's really busy wif all her school work...

yet she's willing to spare her time for me...

I'm really touched...

May, on the other hand, comfort me...

She knows my problems and think of way 2 make me awake n be happy...

thx 4 talking 2 me...

I noe everyone's busy and thx 4 sparing time wif me....

N my Beloved daddy n mummy n Zhen...

All busy wif different stuff yet all willing 2 talk 2 me...

seriously...

I really feel I m so lucky...

to hav a great family and super nice frens beside me....

Thx a lot for being so nice to me...

I miss u guys so much...

ll continue 2 love n miss u all de...

Take good care of urself...

i ll see u guys soon...

=En En=
=0125=

Time FLIES!!!!!!

2009-02-12T06:48:00.000-08:00

I jz realised I nvr up-date my blog for a long time...

Life has been busy...

So Christmas passed....

New year passed....

Chinese New Year passed...

n i still haven update my blog....

Sorry guys...

I'll try 2 update my blog as often as possible de...

so briefly telling what i have been through...

basically nothing much...

actually been through a lot of stuff...

n feeling very down n depress...

but thank God...

He really protect me...

I hav been surrounded by angels...

everybody's trying 2 help me...

i really appreciate wat they hav done for me....

so dun worry bout me...

i'll take good care of myself de...

hope u guys enjoy ur life too...

miss n love u guys lot...

take care n hope 2 see u guys soon...

tata...

=En En=
=2320=

Merry Christmas! ^^

2008-12-24T22:02:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas, my dear family and frens....

Christmas is a very special day for today is d b'day of Jesus...

He's born today, with a mission 2 save u n me...

so today...

The SAVIOUR is born...

hooray....

its a good news...

so i m here 2 share this good news with u guys...

yeah....^^

well....

guess wat i m doing now?

emoing in my own room...

i really wish i m in JB....

wanna celebrate christmas in church...

in Penang...

i only feel like locking myself in d room...

anyway...

i m not suppose 2 share my sad things...

at least not today...

cuz today's a happy day..

well...

ya...

my room can online now wor...

though its very slow..

but its better than before d...

so i m feeling quite satisfied la...

k la...

i ll try 2 update my blog asap de...

if not SOMEBODY ll say my blog is a never update blog...

see u guys...

miss n love u lots...

muacks....

=En En=
=1525=

2008-12-11T05:19:00.000-08:00

Hi all...

long time never update my blog d...

i'm so sorry...

though i m suppose 2 enjoy my holidays...

i'm stuck 2 be "kakak"...

my kakak "put my family aeroplane"...(means she promise us sth but she didnt do it at last)

she was suppose 2 be back in M'sia in My house on 17th of Nov...

so on that day morning...

me n my dad hav 2 wake up really early n drive 2 KLIA 2 fetch her...

we r so sure that she ll be back....

but sad 2 say...

though she's very close 2 us...

still she cheated us...

she didnt come back...

not even a sms...

we r so dissapointed....

not bcuz of d money...

but she cheated us...

we really thrust her...

but she betrayed us...

sad sad...

anyway...

so i m doing my kakak's job now since d new kakak haven reach...

so pls fogive me 4 not updating my blog ya...

i miss u guys a lot...

Take care n do enjoy ur holidays...

=En En=

Hey guys, I'm FREE

2008-11-19T02:01:00.000-08:00

Hi all, i know i seldom update my blog...

n some of u r so angry wif me 4 not updating my blog...

paiseh ya...

my room no connection la...

how 2 online? how 2 update?

anyway...

y m i so free 2 update my blog today?

well...

my exam ended yesterday...

cool right?

n i m out d whole day....

wow....

its so nice...

wat did i do?

hmm....
early in d morning, i go 4 my last paper...

then ends at 12....

then go crazy wif my frens...

go back 2 my room at round 12....

then starts 2 pack my room...

then talk nonsense wif my roommate...

then slept at 2 a.m in d morning...

then wake up today 8 sth in the morning....

then pack again...

then out4 lunch till now haven go back....

wow...

cool right?

i m like wasting my time...

yea...

i m wasting...

not only my time, but my money also...

ah......

i wish 2 go home soon...

then i wont hav 2 spend so much money...

anyway, guys....

i m going home tomorow night n hav my 1 month holidays....

yeah....

so call me n date me ya...

i ll be damn busy de lo....

k then....

hope 2 see u guys...

miss n love u lots...

oh ya...

b4 i end...

vitha...

u jz call me ONCE.....

n then u promise 2 call back....

n i waited n waitedn waited...

u NEVER call back again...

k then...

can end now d...

see u guys soon...

=En En=
=1820=

I M Coming Back Again~~~

2008-11-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

Wow...

Now only i noe it has been a long time since i updated my blog last time...

so how was u guys?

everyone's ok?

happy wif ur own life?

wow, this'll be d 3rd time i went back to my home...

but seriously...

everytime i go back, i never meet u guys..

mayb u all jz miss me only...

dun wish 2 see my face ah?

sad sad...

everytime say miss me a lot but never ask me out de..

so bad...

i noe if JIng saw this statement...

she'll surely kill me de..

but Lai Lai le, Vitha le...

everytime said i miss u so much...

everytime said we must hang out or sth like tat...

but none of it appear also..

anyway..

i just ended my 2nd last paper...

so ll be going home later..

yeah...

so anybody wanna date me out better make appointment before hand ya...

i m like a hot cake which eveeryone wanna date de lo...

so better be fast...

its totally siapa cepat dia dapat...

haha...

k la..

i shall stop here...

anything msg me ba...

i ll try 2 remember 2 reply de..

miss n love u lots...

take care n hav a nice day...

=En En=
=1745=

I know u guys miss me LOTS~~~

2008-09-23T06:01:00.000-07:00

Me n my coursemates..i noe u wont believe me but its true..i dunno wats d guy's name who's standing beside me..haha..then d 3rd one is Nabil n d Malay gal is Nani...i know this pic look like a funny combination...but...not my fault...they said wan 2 take pic de...so i jz take lo..haha..^^

From left to right is Shymi, Maggie (actually is Mei Gee), pretty me n Won Lin..haha..^^
Again, this time Won Lin hold d camera, so its Shymi, Maggie, Me n Uzir..
Ok, dun ask me y i act so 8, jz feel 2 do so, so i jz took d pic n edit. Now i noe i can edit pic so well.

haha..^^

Maggie's trying 2 act like me but she's more hmm..how 2 say...hmm...more "implicit" haha..
me n Maggie...actually we r taking photo at d roadside...so u can imagine how "AA" we r...2 pretty gal taking pictures le...haha...^^

hi all...

here i m again...

but no worry...

i m not moody nor depress this time...

i blog bcuz i feel like 2 blog...

so here i m...

i noe many of u miss me a lot...

so i decided 2 put a lot of my pic this time...

haha...

so perasan...

i noe there mz be somebody feel like 2 beat or wack me now d...

but jz bear wif me la...

i haven act perasan 4 a long time d..

so jz let me be k?

here u r...

pretty pic of a pretty gal...

haha...

pls prepare a plastic bag beside u...

if really cant stand d...

jz do watever u wan wif tat plastic k?

haha...

here we go...

Mooncake Festival~~~~

2008-09-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

From left to right, Kah Voon, Zach, Me and Sarah..We'r all coursemate...

Again,from left to right, zhi shan, me, Nies, and Zach...We know them fr Amazing Race..^^
Obviously that cute lady in pink shirt is me, then Jo lynn n Zach...^^

Me n Kah Voon...So happy..We r going 2 BBQ...Yeah....^^
Again Kah Voon n Me, but add Sarah in..She's fr China...
food...food...food...Its all bout food...
Told u we r going 4 BBQ...So tempting...
Me...taking pic by myself...so cute...

Hey all..

i noe my blog have been very moody all d time...

well...

its mainly bcuz i was update my blog whenever i feel moody...

anyway...

i'm moody now too actually...

jz know that i hav 2 pass up my assignments next week...

so dead now...

but...

i'm not going 2 share my moody assignment things...

as u noe...

mooncake festival jz passed...

n i hav a great time on last Sat, 13/9...

there are some pictures i took tat day...^^

actually, i still hav a lot la...

but impossible 2 post all right?

so i jz pick n choose lo...

We r having a great time on tat day...

though it rains at d end..

we still hav fun...^^

k la..

ll jz stop here 1st..

i still hav a lot of pictures in my laptop...

never get d chance 2 post them...

so next time k?

see u guys...

i really gtg 2 complete my assignment d..

miss n love u lots..

take care n hav a nice day..

=En En=

=1700=

On my way to be RECOVER~~~ ^^

2008-09-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

I have been coughing for almost 1 weeks or more.

feeling so sick,headache,flu and coughing non-stop n ya, i even hurt my leg.

dun ask me y such things happen?

i dunno y but it just happen.

so i jz accept the fact i m sick and try to get well soon.

when i m sick, though i really dun feel well,

i m really touched by wat my brothers n sisters (from church) hav done for me.

Really, they are so sweet.

They send me messages and they pray 4 me.

n they show me that they really care.

Of cuz, I cant be a heartless person.

I have to give credits to my cousrmates who really care 4 me.

My beloved, May, Han Jing, Mei gee, Won Lin and lot more.

Especially Han Jing and May. ^^

thx 4 d medicine and sweets that u hav bought 4 me.

It really helps.

The weather's really bad nowadays in Penang.

thats d reason y i cant recover soon.

i did take good care of myself, drinking lot of water.

still it takes time to recover.

Mooncake festival is coming soon.

Too bad i cant go home 2 reunion wif my family.

but its ok, cuz all of us ll be looking at d same moon, thinking of each others.

it ll be so romantic..

i feel so sweet when i think of it.^^

I really miss my daddy, mummy n Zhen Zhen.

Daddy, mz take good care of urself ya.

dun make me feel worry 4 u..

I know u'll see this one day de..^^

Mummy mz take care also.

I cant afford to lose anyone of u..

Zhen ah, mz be a gd gal ya.

dun make mummy angry ya..

mummy hav u as her only daughter beside her now.

mz be a filial kid..^^

k la, i shall stop here..

talking nonsense all over the page la.

but dun feel like deleting it.

so jz bear wif it ya.

miss u guys.

take care ya.

=En En=
=1553=

Tired me~~~

2008-08-28T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hey all...

i know i never update my blog 4 long...

not tat i dun wan 2 update la...

its not tat i m very busy...

but actually i m busy...

wat the hell i m talking about?

well...

its just everytime when i tried 2 post my blog..

it ll soon end up in my recycle bin...

haha...

I didnt sleep for days d...

really really tired..

i wish i could sleep...

these few nights i ll jz wake up middle in the night n couldnt continue my sleep...

heart beat going very very fast..

feeling very uneasy and unsecure...

y ah?

since my b'day, its like tat d..

i jz dun understand..

there's no assignments 4 me 2 rush..

there's test but its not final exam..

its jz mid-sem test...

so y i m feeling so uneasy?

weird...

I seldom cried nowadays d...

is it a good sign?

u probably think its a yes..

but i tell u...

its no...

my heart-ache...

feeling get hurt....

y ah?

y ppl likes to hurt me?

i really feel like crying...

its really hurt...

but i keep on telling myself..

en,be brave..

mayb its better 4 me 2 be alone...

so tat nobody can hurts me...

i keep on pretend i feel nothing...

but it actually hurts...

very much...

tell me...

wat should i do?

sigh~~~~

=En En=
=1414=

Going Home Soon~~~~~~

2008-08-13T21:52:00.000-07:00

Hi all...

sure u all miss me a lot right?

hey i m...

coming home soon...

ll be taking tonight's bus at 8.30p.m...

yeah...

n then i ll reach J.B tomorrow morning....

Yeah...

miss home a lot...

miss daddy,miss mummy,miss zhen zhen...

miss everything at home...

just wish 2 be at home now...

I'm in my school's library now...

updating my blog...again..haha...

everytime i ll just update my blog in library one..

weird sia...

but used 2 it d..

anyway...

i went 2 Gurney last night...

just 2 hav longan...

so cute of us...

May Hsin's d one who's driving...

bringing me n zach all d way fr USM 2 Gurney...

it takes almost 1 hour 2 reach there...

then we watched Dark Knight at 9.15p.m...

n by d time i got home...

its already half past mid-night...

then only i starts 2 pack things...

haha...

late sia..

so i get 2 sleep 3a.m in d morning...

got up at 6 sth d next day...

packing my room...

n i m coming home soon...

yeah...

i hav 2 keep on repeating this line cuz i m really happy...

n ya...

i jz done my Aiesec's chit-chat session...

its fun...

then only i noe i can talk so much...

its suppose 2 end between half an hour...

but i spent almost one hour talking 2 d senior...

its so much fun...^^

well...

guess tats all i wan 2 say...

n i m looking forward 2 get home...

so guys...

see ya in J.B...

i hope i can meet u guys...

but considering i hav tons of assignments 2 complete...

so it ll be kind of hard la...

haha...

anyway...

jz very happy i ll be hoome soon...

see u guys....

miss n love u lots...

muacks...

=En En=
=1300=

U life is not EASY!!!!

2008-08-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

I cant remember who told me...

s/he said tatonce u gone through ur form 6 life n get into U,

u wont wan 2 go back 2 form 6 life...

well,its absolutely d other way round 4 me..

i would rather go back 2 form 6 n study n study n study...

For me,Form 6 life is a sweet memory now...

I wish i could go back...

D 1st week in U is nightmare as i hav mentioned before..

n when i'm trying 2 settle down n get use to it..

i thought i did it successfully..

cuz everything seems nice n sweet 4 me..

But...

it all change when it comes to assignment..

oh my goodness..

its ton n ton of asignments...

I wish i know how 2 do...

its all so strange 2 me..

wats this?n wats tat?

wat should i do?How should i start?

Evrything ends wif a question marks behind...

Then i starts 2 cry...

seriously..

i really dunno wat 2 do...

when i m looking at my assignment lists n d deadline i'm suppose 2 pass up...

i feel so helpless n lost..

really dunno wat i should do next...

n i'm thinking of giving up...

forget bout U,forget bout degree,forget bout everything...

i just wan 2 go home..

its just so simple..

go home...

but i cant..

this's my dream...

this's my life..

this's my responsibility...

wat i m worry bout i dunno...

but God knows..

y should i be worry bout tomorow?

isnt it god's will 2 lead me here?

he knows his plan...

all i need 2 do is follow..

so i pray 2 God...

God,pls giv me strength n wisdom...

i dunnp wat'll happen 2 me..

but i noe u'll lead me..

i noe u'll always there 4 me..

u'll make a way 4 me when there seems 2 be no way...

So pls..

make me rely on u..

well,dear all..

pls continue 2 pray 4 me..

i really nid strength n courage 2 lead on..

i'm trying hard 2 settle down...

just hope everything ll run smooth...

miss n love u lots...

miss daddy,miss mummy,miss zhen zhen...

really miss home...

=En En=
=1320=

Miss Daddy,Miss Mummy,Miss Zhen Zhen,Miss U

2008-07-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody...

long time no see..

I m fine in Penang,no worry,everything's going fine..

I was suppose 2 update my blog everyday de..

but too bad...

school life in U is quite busy...

but i m having fun n almost get used 2 it d..

d 1st week of orientation was like a nightmare to me..

Its not tat d seniors bully..

in fact they take good care of us..

but i really miss home..

this's d 1st time i left home..

staying in a place which i m suppose 2 feel familiar yet its so strange to me..

i hav problem wif being alone without my family..

everything's like so strange to me n i really feel lonely..

not tat i dun hav frens..

i make lot new frens...

but they r NEW...

we r not yet tat close 2 each other..

everyone is like busy wif their own stuff,trying 2 settle down..

i hav no one 2 talk 2..

everyday we nid 2 wake up really early n only be back during midnight..

i m really feeling tired..

but thank God..

I did meet someone angelic..

they r like having wings flying 2 me n offer me help..

so sweet of them...

they make me feel warm n secure..

I still remember one of d seniors told me..

Its time for u to grow..

well..

its really true..

i m now learning 2 manage my time,learn to get along wif different kind of ppl,learn not 2 be afraid of cockroach,learn 2 be independent,learn 2 take care of myself,learn 2 manage money,i really learn a lot of things..

n i think its really true..

i can feel tat i m growing..

n i noe i ll be a different ppl when i m home...

btw..

I ll be back on 15th of August n ll stay mayb untill 20th sth of August..

so if u guys wan 2 date me,make sure u make early appointment ya..

haha..jz kidding la..

i m sure u guys sure miss me a lot de..^^

frankly speaking..

i miss u guys alot alot alot too..

ll be waiting forwrd 2 see u guys..

so make sure u all dun turn me down ya..

take care,all my dears...

miss n love u lots..

=En En=
=1240=

I m Here!!!!!!!

2008-07-06T23:55:00.000-07:00

Dear all...got miss me?

I still haven got my very own laptop...

so i m actually borrowing my fren's laptop..

well..Penang is a nice place..ita jz tat its warmer but d things r cheaper...

much much cheaper than jb 4 sure...

I meet lot frens here..

ll update my blog as soon as i got my own laptop..

see u guys there...^^

=En En=
=1512=

A feeling I cant express

2008-06-27T09:24:00.000-07:00

Dear all,I m in Penang now d..

ll report myself in USM tomorow morning..

Hopefully everything ll be fine...

2 days never blog d..

miss my blog so much sia..

After this,I dunno until when only i can blog d..

Wont get my laptop soon..

At least ll nid 2 wait until my school orientation is over..

Sad sia..

So cant update u guys wif my latest news...

But no worry..

U may sms or call me anytime u want..

i m not in ulu place or in camp..

so guess u may contact me anytime u want...

Zhen,i miss u so much sia..

mz alwiz call me n sms me ya..

mms i ll also accept de...

jz promise 2 send ya..

take care all...

ll update my blog as soon as i can..

see ya all..

miss n love lots..

=En En=

=0040=

Farewell Party!!!!

2008-06-24T07:40:00.000-07:00

Finally i got my REAL offer letter today..

But its kind of late cuz i already send my document there d..

Who cares?Just let it be ba..

Who ask them 2 send 2 me so late..So not effective sia..

Anyway..Quite happy today..

I m so touched tat my church members create a farewell party 4 me..^^

They prepared a lot of foods n even present..

So sweet of them..

Thx Wan Ping jie jie 4 giving me a cute shop bag..

haha..she really know me so well..

thx Xiao Qing jie jie 4 giving me a 4GB thumb drive..

u r so thoughtful knowing tat i ll nid it in U..

Thx my little buddy fr youth fellowship,Ji Xen..^^

He sang 3 songs 4 me n 1 is written by him..

Here it goes..

It's in Chinese..

贡献

您在教会里面已有好多年
您的贡献耶稣都看见

耶稣赐给您数不清的恩典
他为您流出宝血

您前面的路程要时常祷告
不要放弃坚持下去
愿神赐福予您
您千万不要忘记耶稣爱您

Thx a lot 4 d song..

I really appreciate 4 wat u hav done 4 me...^^

k then..

Shall stop here..

Night n sweet dream..

Take care all...

=En En=
=2250=

Tired Day!!!

2008-06-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

Today is very tired..

Nothing much 2 say..

Still hav a lot of things 2 prepare..

Sad sad..

Today i attend my last piano class..

I m so going 2 miss my ticer n my pianomate de..

Hopefully can continue 2 play piano when i m in Penang..

Take care all my frens..

ll miss u lots when i m away de..

love ya lots..

Muacks..

=En En=
=2230=

Y is it so complicated?

2008-06-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

Y?Y?Y?Why is everything so complicated?

Damn ma fan..

Its so annoying n it really pissed me off..

Gosh..When ll everything be settle?

A lot of forms 2 prepare,2 fill in,2 sign n 2 post.

Y cant they jz settle everything on net?

Where is my offer letter?

Where is my envelope?

Where is my Borang Maklumat Pelajar?

Why they wan us 2 settle evrything without providing everything we nid?

Wat the hell they r doing?

Gosh,i m so going 2 become crazy...

Phew...

Felling better now..

jz hope tat everything ll be fine soon..

I jz wish i could get there soon n settle evrything n start my school life smoothly..

haiz..

Tomorrow ll be another busy day..

Jz hope everything ll be fine..

Its jz a small wish..

everything to be fine..

=En En=
=2300=

Wat a busy day!

2008-06-21T08:16:00.001-07:00

Gosh..Wat a BUSY day today..

Really dun understand wat d hell d government is doing..

Inform us on Wed (18/6) then d next thing is report ourself in d campus on next Sat (28/6)

Its like less than two weeks..n my campus is so far away..

a lot of things 2 buy,2 prepare,2 pack n all kind of nonsense..

Well,lots of things 2 do,but i cant really sleep well..

Keep on thinking bout new life in USM..

Though its my hometown,still i m going 2 stay there all by myself..

Quite worry bout new life..Dunno wat it ll be like without my family n frens around..

Anyway,I bought lot things today..

Clothes,pants,shirt,skirt,blouse,baju kurung,bear,watch,slipper,sport shoes n lot lot more things.

Tired sia..n used my mum's money lot..

Poor mummy..ya she ll definitely be very poor bcuz of me..

k then,ll stop here..

Cuz of d weather n lot of things 2 do i m not feeling well..

So nid 2 rest early..

oh ya,Lai,if u see this,wanna say a million thx 4 d potato salad..

so sweet of u..purposely make 4 me n send it 2 my house..

I m so gonna miss ur salad when i m in USM de..^^

Take care n hope 2 see u soon..

Night all,still nid 2 pack things..

=En En=
=2330=

My New Blog

2008-06-20T09:12:00.000-07:00

This is not my 1st time blogging,but this is absolutely the 1st time I own my very own blogspot.

Its kind of fun.^^

Actually some of my frens did ask me to create my own blogspot before,too bad,I'm too lazy n not interested in it.So it never work out successfully.

So why did I create my ow blogspot at last leh?

Well,Lai,u wont believe it,U r d REASON y i create.Haha.

It was such a great suprise when u told me today tat u hav create ur very own blogspot.

Wow,it was super great man.A person who hates Frenster n Facebook create her own blogspot n even encourage others to do it d same way.

So here I m,Lai.^^

Creating my own blogspot.

I hope my blog's life wont end soon.Haha.Help me pray hard ya.^^

Lai,d 1st reason is half kidding n half true.

But d 2nd reason is really real.

As u know,Im going off very soon.

We wont hav d chance 2 study together,chat together,n even to see each other everyday anymore.

But I hope u wont miss my life in USM.

Jz like wat u said,it might becomes a good way for us to be nearer to each other.

So dont let ur blog die off no matter how busy u r,n i shall work hard 2 maintain my blog too.^^

Drop by whenever u free,n write me comment or things like tat.

I m so going 2 miss u very much.

Mz really keep in touch ya.

Love u lots.Muack.

=En En=
=0030=

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